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found trinkets in unabashed contemptibility and blinded hunger



I stare off
into a vast empty void
left by a man who I hadn't a clue
how badly I wanted
until he showed me

The intensity within that desire
he blossomed inside me,
and it burns for him
even in this very moment
I suspect it always will

I'm aflame for him,
always

Reading his words—        
slay me through
to my very core,
I fight like hell
the immediate and immense
impulse to run after him
until my lungs scream out in agony
begging him to make me his      

HIS

To have him possess me
and me alone
the uniquely physical response
to merely his words,
has my poor body shivering all over
desperate
aching
and utterly ashamed


How will I ever be the same?          
            
"Please remain
slightly within my orbit
if I need you"
My pathetic heart
begs me to say,
luckily my pride cements my lips

My own disgrace is mine to keep

What's left secretly known is that
I need him with every breath I take
My pussy is attuned solely to him,
and him alone.

(Traitor that she is)

I've spent more lonely moments
than I care to admit,
pleasuring my needy cunt to him            
only now,
paying the price

He's savvy,
He's my obsession
and my heart's hurt

I have to forget him
I should forget him
I want to forget him
I wish I never met him

Knowing better
I still fail
my poor shattered soul's
obvious expectation—
however destroyed
I thanked him for the kindness
and generosity of thought
contemptible in it's absolute

and yet,
I take his last throw away kisses
and save them in my pocket...
    






 
Written by Bluevelvete
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©Blu2021
part fantasy part reality..
All, lessons learned.
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