an almost admitted selfishness.

Brava, Blue❣❣ A beautiful. Melancholy piece. This passage is so thought provoking and true to my life as well "I was once told never to be anyone's "Plan B"  
forgetting that "Anyone" also means me" the 🙏😘

Ohh, B
Your comments are so welcomed and appreciated. I don't really even remember writing, Isn't that crazy?? I just typed out words, really. (is how this felt writing it) I reread it many times, and it started to look weird to me, but I said, "fuck it" and posted it anyway... lol... Ohh well.
It's late. No one will see.. hahahaha
Ty for reading and all your kindness
✨😘🤗😍🌹🙏

Agree with GW, quite the melancholy write ... and no never be someone's plan B, or your own ... you are worth more than that ... Bless and love ...

Dearest FeNyX... returned blessing and much love 🙏
🌹
xo

An exquisite bloom

Thank you, Colin.
💜  
I'm lucky to have your friendship  
Extremely lucky 🍀  
xoxo  
🌹

Well beautiful such a open hearted piece. You truly a fantastic poet, expressive and the visuals your poetry have given me are absolutely wonderful
BE STRONG BE BEAUTIFUL AND BE YOU
YOU ARE ENOUGH
love and light
Ron xx

I'm Being 💪🏻... Ty for reading and your motivation
My deep appreciation for the list add and your absolutely heartfelt kindness.
You are awesome, my salty sweetheart!
Much love and smiles from across the pond...
🌹
xo

....nothing more genuine then that beautiful spontaneous heart felt pensive spill. Your authenticity flows brilliantly. You are clearly not a back up plan simply confirmed by this glimpse of who you are inside. Strength, Beauty, and obviously Creativity are pretty fertile soil..... Beautiful Blue!

Well, I am adjusting my thought processes a bit at a time, so I'm hoping to catch up... Ty very much for your unbelievably astute and motivational thoughts. I'm forever grateful for you and that kindness. The list add and your visits in general, are always extremely helpful and deeply appreciated... I just wanted to remind of that.
Lovely seeing you this morning..... ☺
💜
🌹
xo

So thought provoking grabbing at the subconsciousness of your mind and heart and spiritual soul respect dear poetess

Dearest Stoney,
Thank you for reading and leaving me your thoughts. I always perk up with a brightness that wasn't there prior to reading your comments...
Deepest gratitude and many smiles, my friend.
Much love and returned respect,
🌹
xo
B

Likewise dear poetess..respect enjoy your day today my friend and poetess 😇

"I was once told never to be anyone's "Plan B"        
forgetting that "Anyone" also means me"
I had to stop there for a moment, damn, just daaaaaaamn, that line hit so effing hard. We're not the always as important as we believe when seen by another.    
"or the lone one to see the sky go blinded brilliant" Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...CK What a line, I just...(I'll carry on reading)

I've always related roses to the clitoris, just me and my perversions I guess1, but here it resonates loud being that it's the only flower to earn for full display.
Only earned by someone that makes that flower bloom.

Anyway, what an immaculate piece.

Kieron,
Your comments are just perfectly juicy and I'm going to be totally self indulgent and relish them, utterly!.. Your line choices were (after looking back, trying to remember my writing process, because it's mostly fog and smoke and rawness) and are now, some of my most cringe-able lines (it's a good thing) that I know might be of resonance with another because they make me almost queasy... if that makes sense... hahaha.
I have a total passion for flowers and until recently, you'd be able to tell that I kinda refer to them a great deal in my writing (I've removed a lot of poems) and I especially love roses. I agree they're very clit akin although for my money, I'd pick a orchids as my pussy prompt ... lmao...
Yours, was a much needed basking in a breathtakingly luscious mental stimuli. I am grateful for your visits (please do not hesitate to return!) your RL add and the time you took with me... That's the sign of kindness.
Ty Ty Ty!,
Much love and a respectful cheek kiss,
🌹
xo

Like you I have done to mine, I've read this piece over and over. The fog and smoke that you mention...don't stop that because it can create the most fantastical and beautiful poetry.
For what may seem cringe might be a total beautiful piece of poetry and so I love that you haven't changed a word though it might seem like a cringe.
I am so glad that you posted this, like flowers, you bloom emotionally and words cease to explain how much I love this.
The more I read, the more I need to read...thank you.

You're leaving me speechless...
Not an easy feat,either
lol.
I'm moved by your sentiments, Kieron
Ty
*tips my hat
💜
xoxo

You are a gentleman, whose loveliness is a smile added to my morning. Ty so much for reading and the list add, Wilber. Your comments are reverberating within. I'm grateful for you and adore your visits.
🇺🇸💙🇬🇧
Much love,
🌹
B

Wow aren’t we a busy little bee .
I applaud your strength and love you .
When things aren’t going right and you need someone to talk to, call Jackie,
1-800 call Jackie now!
Chin you beautiful you are amazing ♥️
Jackie ♥️🥰🤗

This was unintentionally written!!
hahahaha...
Love you too, lady cakes
Ty Jackie, I will absolutely!
✨☎️👍🏻 👌🏻☑️☑️☑️✨
xoxo
🌹

I do that two sometimes, a lot actually, Especially when I’m writing a story .I just sit down and it just write itself, so I get it :)
🥰

Also, we always want what is not good for us.
It’s in our DNA 🧬 I think 🤔 I too am my own worst enemy, I think most of us are.
Well at least the ones who care about other people whereas the ones who don’t hurt inside but “ hurt”  
Others...
Hang in there BlueBoo
Loves you sis
Broomie xo

I couldn't agree with you more, J
It's my nature to be compassionate and open. I know enough about the ways of the world and people in general to watch my back... It's more about forgetting about watching myself. I dunno.
I'll figure it out, eventually
You're a beautiful soul!
🌹
Ty for everything (list add, your ear, time, consideration, etc....)
I'm deeply grateful
You're wicked cool 😎
Much love from BlueBoo
xoxo
💜

Every word is perfectly placed

xo
💜

It is the thorns that cause us to appreciate and value the roses in life. Without day there would be no night; without down, there'd be no up. And the philosopher was right who said, "The unexamined life is not worth living." WE have the power to turn the scares into stars. Self-examination is where we start. This great poem elicited this remark. Great as usual. HUgs, kisses, and peace  oral

Very nicely expressed Oralizer 💜🤗

Your comments are being pondered and are deeply appreciated, my Oral loveliness.
Ty so much for your generosity in thought.
I value you and your insights more than you know.
Ty for sharing with me
I'm lucky you're within my orbit again....
Very.
Much love,
🌹
S

You inspire me so much.  I adore your conversational, confessional style.  Another fantastic measure of your talent 🙏❤️🙏☮️🙏🌅🙏

Ty Margo
Your thoughts and insights are valuable to me.
Ty for reading, the listing add and being open and welcoming.
Much love and respect.
💜
xoxo

You make my words look like child play.

your words are too dear and darkly delicious for children.... ;)
I'm very appreciative of your read and kind sentiment, my lovely Adagio..
Ty -
🥀🖤🥀

I am just a scribbler.

Not even close... A dark wordsmith of unparalleled portions...
🖤

I bang my own anvil.

... and we, the truly lucky.. get to bask in the forged-in-the-fire creations, as a result
... Plus, I LOVE a sweaty wordsmith banging away upon his hard anvil.....
(I couldn't help it!!!!)
;)

The magic found in automatic writing... ⚘ Pen to parchment to reveal a profound growth found within the powers of self... there is nothing wrong with self serving... it is a needed necessity... it's the selfish reassuring that gives you the strength to share with others... a flower does not grow healthy and strong into brilliant bloom trying to root within the sand of the soil... but there are many who thrive once transplanted to more fertile environments... this is a poem that reads like your recognizing and revealing your need for self care... 🥀💙🌹
It is so nice to see you back miss blue...🌸🌺🌻

Eli,  
My friend soul mate of DU and beyond...Your avatar is like an instant mood corrector. I wish I could bottle this feeling and sip on it when I need it the most.  
"It's the selfish reassuring that gives you the strength to share with others".. you say. Why hasn't that little nugget O' wisdom been rattling around my brain??? Jesus, that just laid me out, in it's perfect succinctness. To transition myself into something more fertile and fortunate is exactly it... EXACTLY. You are always there, not far from the recesses of my mind, my Eli. I cannot begin to tell you how much that means to me. You get it. You always have. Thanks for your time, the break down and for reeling me back in, a bit  
I miss you!!!  
Write a poem... It's killing me, the waiting!!!  
I know I know... it'll come when it comes.  
(insert dirty joke here!)  
Hee hee hee  
Much love and respectful hugs,  
🌹  
xo

🔥⚘ Miss blue... you warm my heart with your words... while I struggle to find a few of my own lol... you can lean on me anytime... 🥀🌹 but again... I think you already know that...☀️🌻

✨🌹✨
I do know, Eli.  
Your strength is like an unseen hug  
I feel it's warmth encase me and I'm extremely grateful and more than lucky.  
I am incandescent.
🔥🌷🥀🌹♨️

Anyone means me..
Class!..

Ty for reading, Numer
I appreciate your comment  
🌹
xo

Great poem.  You are beautiful hot strong woman with a great mind.  Keep on writing.

You're very sweet and I appreciate you reading, Francisco thank you!
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I’m a terrible commenter! I read a ton, but don’t always comment. But I just had to say this: I have seen you grow! As a writer and, if your pieces are confessional/autobiographical, a person. Well done, Blue. Very well done!

Your lovely comments make me blush with humble "Awww shucks"... Thank you very much, Daisy. I'm so appreciative of your read, the list add and all your kindness and support. 🙏
Much love and respect,
🌹
xo

If anything.. It is safe to say I'm in love with the title..

Considering the fact that titling is one of my total fetishes, it's not "if anything" to me, it's quite something. I will take that praise with proud gusto and unyielding glory!... Feel free to peruse my other titles...
(she jokes, yet not really)
🌹
xo

Yeah! I so much like this tittle..

"My entitlement is a true storied ailment"

I'd steal that, if I wrote vers libre...

I think that I am more flattered and excited by this comment, than any before it...
(Shhhh, don't tell anyone)  
Damn, you're good.  
Ty, Reggie
My heart is full  
🌹 🥃 🌹  
xo
edit:
Thank you for the follow, too. ✨

Dearest Blue,
I think it goes without saying that you're one of the most admired and respected writers here on this site. Judging by the likes, RLs and comments, this composition speaks volumes. I'm not entirely sure what happened earlier that day but I know I reached out as soon as those notices popped up and I got worried.

Knowing your self-worth and value will get you through anything. It's difficult to put ourselves out there, especially because the world has been ugly these last few days (if not years), but appreciate your courage and resolve.

Thanks for sharing.

Walter,
I am thankful for your open and caring persona. I appreciate you reaching out and all the time and care you've shown me, it's so so welcomed and cherished.

It's true that the atmosphere surrounding us has been challenging, to put it mildly. It's forced us (me) from being a social person to being one of almost singular. I think, allowing myself to get lost a bit within the DU cyber walls, isn't surprising. I just have to make sure that I can find my way back, to me.

Your concerns mean a lot, Walter.
I'm so fortunate that you have my back.

Much love and respect,
🌹
xo
B

I think it would be a terrible thing to be someone's plan B. It might be better than being their plan C if it is a race but everyone want's an A. You reminded me of something imporant, an important truth I don't often think about because of the abuse I've endured in life.