grateful

 
I live in a small cow town not much to it besides the cheese company
mostly we have dairies and farmland to grow feed for the cows
I live on a ten-acre ranch used to grow winter oats for the dairies

it's green here with almond orchards and eucalyptus across the way
mostly blue open sky and land
a flowering garden in the yard where I meditate
I am deeply connected to this plot of Earth

a schizophrenic I am often found pacing the back forty
talking openly to the spirits unseen or heard by most of the world
I am connected to the sky, the trees around me, and the Earth herself

when I feel boxed in or cornered by a noxious spirit
I call to my tree guardians they help hold up the sky above me giving me peace
when things press in and I think I will suffocate
they rain blossoms down on me and make me forget I'm anxious

I couldn't live anywhere else without conflict
I am grateful