My Eyes Are Up Here

Not.. my mouth
 
A nightmare fuel smile  
with teeth out of line
a rabbit-toothed face
stuck in my pre-pubescant phase
where I was told I was ugly
'cause fuck me-
I don't think
I'll ever be okay
 
The only kid on the playground
swinging on the swingsets
that creaked with the wind
and the only sound were stories
I was creating in my head
and the only time I felt safe
was when I was hiding deep  
in the fantasy I thought  
they'd hunt until it was dead  
 
But I was the only murderer,
the only hunter in the fold
I realized I had to step up until  
I couldn't see the ground no more
and when I jumped I realized  
I would never let them
throw me back on the floor
 
I should have listened when  
they bitched about my efforts
to show I was enough
 
I should have never had
so many wishes  
but my only wish now
is you'll just look me in my eyes
and ignore the stupid, ugly teeth
inside my broken, "pretty" face