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Eternally Alone
I never did belong here anyway.
I've known it from the very start.
So, go ahead jack ass, give me all you've got!
I'll stand tall once more while I'm torn apart.
And this time I'll cast a record shadow,
Because deep down I know it's soon to be done.
This body may be failing far too slowly,
But it was long ago this mind and heart were done.
Don't you dare shed a single tear for me,
With the way you reveled in breaking me in this place!
Don't you dare convene in my memory,
Like my time here wasn't waisted forever being replaced.
You're gonna miss me when I fly away,
But it will be indescribably late in coming.
You're going to feel the deepest kind of sting.
Your deafening cries will never again bring me running.
How long have I prayed to god's and goddesses,
That I never truly believed in anyway,
To ride that dark horse here, trumpet sounding,
Kiss me softly, sweetly, then carry me away?
I knew that dark and peaceful place once.
The only place I have ever felt at home.
My heart ached in this place for how I've missed it -
My place to be eternally alone.
I've known it from the very start.
So, go ahead jack ass, give me all you've got!
I'll stand tall once more while I'm torn apart.
And this time I'll cast a record shadow,
Because deep down I know it's soon to be done.
This body may be failing far too slowly,
But it was long ago this mind and heart were done.
Don't you dare shed a single tear for me,
With the way you reveled in breaking me in this place!
Don't you dare convene in my memory,
Like my time here wasn't waisted forever being replaced.
You're gonna miss me when I fly away,
But it will be indescribably late in coming.
You're going to feel the deepest kind of sting.
Your deafening cries will never again bring me running.
How long have I prayed to god's and goddesses,
That I never truly believed in anyway,
To ride that dark horse here, trumpet sounding,
Kiss me softly, sweetly, then carry me away?
I knew that dark and peaceful place once.
The only place I have ever felt at home.
My heart ached in this place for how I've missed it -
My place to be eternally alone.
Published 18th Aug 2020
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19th Aug 2020 2:00am
Would be nice to have some peace and quite, now and then, escape this circle jerk of a trap we're in. But once your out would you be let back in?
I have thought of this a few times and this poem of yours reminds me a lot of this train of thought. Thanks for sharing.
I have thought of this a few times and this poem of yours reminds me a lot of this train of thought. Thanks for sharing.
19th Aug 2020 2:08am
Oh....that is good stuff my friend! I freaking love it! Escape this circle jerk of a trap we're in, indeed. Thank you for sharing, as well!
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19th Aug 2020 4:46am
Thanks! It's really great to be here! I have been told too many times to count that I am quite the oxymoronic personality. Perhaps that's how I am able to feel such hopeful despair.
19th Aug 2020 9:23am
Sometimes I feel that alone is best (of course I am pretty much always alone), but humans being social animals, we all need contacts now and then…..different mindsets for different times?
19th Aug 2020 10:51am
I feel alone is best in most cases as well. I've been attempting my whole life to understand our species fascination with "needing" other people. Outside my children, I find needing others brings me the drama of others, and I fail to see the appeal. I'm working on it though!
19th Aug 2020 11:23am
So, you have children, thus you are not quite alone…..though you are alone, like the rest of us. Like the famous poet said, ''No man is an Island''. But then also, they do not make caskets for two. So, in the end we are alone. Cruel dilemma. Indeed we are all working on this, trying not to go mad. Kisses, Robert.
19th Aug 2020 7:29pm
I am very lucky to have my two kids. My oldest is already moved out into the world on her own, and the youngest will be following his sister before I know it. Others often have a harder time accepting my lack of concern for being alone a lot than I myself do. However, I have always said, I came into this world alone, and I will take my final leave of this place alone. If loneliness were as unnatural as most claim it is, that would not be the case. We'd be born and die in pairs or groups. Thank you! 🖤
19th Aug 2020 7:57pm
19th Aug 2020 10:59am
I too often seek that dark place where the walls close in, the world vanishes and I am left alone not talking Just listening as my mind speaks to me. Once detached from reality, exploring the dark is revelation and that can only happen alone. Welcome to the dark side! I wonder what you see in your dark? Wonderful write!🌹🙏, A.
19th Aug 2020 7:35pm
Thanks so much! I was born into darkness. I can't recall a time I wanted anything else. It's where I'm comfortable, feels like home. Where, as you said, I go exploring for revelations. Some need help from others to dissect their hearts and minds. I find others just crowd me there, and I can't breathe for the overwhelming influence of their presence and opinions.
20th Aug 2020 00:42am
Well said! I’m a true “child of the dark”. I find threads in the dark, some attached some off into the unknown. I must admit that occasionally I encounter a question I can’t answer. I’d love an opinion but I’m alone! Left to wander and wonder.🤔🌹
20th Aug 2020 8:54am
I love your flow and the message within.
If this is truly how you feel, I am right there with you.
Hoka!
If this is truly how you feel, I am right there with you.
Hoka!
25th Aug 2020 8:08am
I completely understand wanting to be free of this place. If not for my three kids I would have been gone log ago. They have all moved out on their own and I'm back to sitting alone in the darkness again. Before my kids, I tried to buy a ticket out only to find that I have a guardian with a twiztid sense of humor. I have issues with understanding people's obsession with needing another, as well. I have no problems with solitude with the exception of missing my three. I have tried interacting with others and I always find myself back in the comfort of a darkened room. I do think some of us were never meant to be here. Well penned! I could feel the emotions that you used to write it.
21st Jan 2021 7:34pm
When you think you are all alone, remember you have us here at DUP. When it is dark, we'll cast some light. And when you shine too bright, we'll cast some shade so you don't blow a fuse! : )
Human interaction can be taxing (and the taxes are always due). I've done it myself, isolate. In the long run, I know its not a solution. But, you know your skin and what you are comfortable with. So even if you find comfort and peace in the dark, your writing is like a candle. Helping you observe and others see you.
Human interaction can be taxing (and the taxes are always due). I've done it myself, isolate. In the long run, I know its not a solution. But, you know your skin and what you are comfortable with. So even if you find comfort and peace in the dark, your writing is like a candle. Helping you observe and others see you.
