doors

So many things locked behind closed doors
Doors that keep us separated
Separated by secrets
Secrets I just want to let it out
Out I just want to scream and shout
But I don’t
I somehow control myself and keep it in

I see all your posts
All the pictures of you crying
A grab for attention or maybe the truth
I want to yell I understand
I want to post every time I cry I want to post about the time I almost said goodbye

But than again
I don’t want to know what people say
I don’t want how people to see me change
So I go on keeping it all locked away

Locked away behind closed doors
Through away the key
I tell myself someday
Someday you can let it all out
All your sadness pain and worry
But not now
Let everyone else tell there story’s
But leave yours unknown
The truth is better hidden
You can work through it on your own

You’re strong
Not everyone is that strong
Not everyone can say no to the craving for attention
That craving to yell stop and make them listen
Not everyone is strong but I am
Or at least I tell myself
In those moments of weakness
When I want to tell you how I feel
Instead, I throw my phone
And have a mental breakdown
Crying talking it’s the same
We all work through things in different ways
I just wish mine didn’t involve
Doors

So many things locked behind doors
Doors keep us separated
Separated by secrets
Secrets I want to let it all out
Out I want to scream and shout
But I don’t
I keep it all locked away
Knowing it will all come out someday