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I'm okay

When you look at me you see just another face
But when I look at me
I see a broken girl pretending to be okay
When I look into the mirror tears form in my eyes
Till I can no longer see the sadness of my reflection staring back at me

I work so hard to convince everyone I’m okay
That sometimes I convince myself of the same
Until one minor inconvenience comes my way
And I begin to feel my self slip away
Spiraling down a hole
A mixture of silent tears and pain
these tears are just another reminder that I am not okay
That I have failed yet again at being the person people see me as

My parent’s happy girl
Is really not so happy
But they will never know
They will never know the girl behind my mask
The girl that wants to be a dancer
The girl that loves to sing even though she’s not very good
The girl that constantly believes she will not be good enough
The girl that’s full of fear
Full of sadness
Full of insecurity
The girl who want’s to take on the world
But can’t

That girl is kept a secret
Hidden away
Getting more and more distant as the hours turn into days
And the part of me that’s still here becomes more and more fake
And I begin to hate the person I have become
That I don’t even want to call her by my name
And yet I still let the real me keep slipping away
Because I know I am not strong enough to lift this mask
To let the world know the real me
My real passion
And my pain

I can picture my parents face when they find out I’m not okay
And I know that the girl behind the mask
Has to go away
So I let you look at me as if I’m okay
And I save my tears for the girl in the mirror
Who will never quite be okay
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