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BASTILLE
she was tender
just under
the skin
and had been
wounded
and disrespected
and, she thought,
discarded
and so she
built her fortress
of residue
gathered
from yard sales
and thrift shops
and trash piles
and each thing
she told herself
had purpose
and value
and meaning
and she gradually
stacked it
floor
to ceiling
and layered it
thick along the walls
that she might
insulate herself
from hurt
though bad news crept in
through the phone
and television
and those things, too,
she buried,
burrowing
ever deeper
into her bed
of garbage,
isolated and
finally
absolutely
safe
just under
the skin
and had been
wounded
and disrespected
and, she thought,
discarded
and so she
built her fortress
of residue
gathered
from yard sales
and thrift shops
and trash piles
and each thing
she told herself
had purpose
and value
and meaning
and she gradually
stacked it
floor
to ceiling
and layered it
thick along the walls
that she might
insulate herself
from hurt
though bad news crept in
through the phone
and television
and those things, too,
she buried,
burrowing
ever deeper
into her bed
of garbage,
isolated and
finally
absolutely
safe
Author's Note
Inspired by my wife's mother -- a classic hoarder unable to let go of anything and living in a mountain of junk, moving like a mouse through it's tunnels, excavating the stacks for her basic needs.
And always bringing more junk home.
And always bringing more junk home.
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Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 3:01pm
It is an odd but sad condition this isn't it?
I lived with one for a bulk of yrs, watched it steadily get worse as time went on...I would sneak things into garbage that hadn't been touched nor looked at for yrs...and it would be noticed within days that it was gone...very surreal existence.
"she buried,
burrowing
ever deeper
into her bed
of garbage,
isolated and
finally
absolutely
safe"
Smooth Write
Great ending!!!
I lived with one for a bulk of yrs, watched it steadily get worse as time went on...I would sneak things into garbage that hadn't been touched nor looked at for yrs...and it would be noticed within days that it was gone...very surreal existence.
"she buried,
burrowing
ever deeper
into her bed
of garbage,
isolated and
finally
absolutely
safe"
Smooth Write
Great ending!!!
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Re: Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 3:10pm
Thanks, S., as always, for reading and commenting.
It's an amazing disease and fascinating to see but dangerous and frustrating. As difficult as any other mental illness to deal with.
It's an amazing disease and fascinating to see but dangerous and frustrating. As difficult as any other mental illness to deal with.
Re: Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 4:09pm
Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 3:44pm
I have a neighbor who is a hoarder ... checked on her with the pandemic ... it makes me want to cry ...
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Re: Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 4:18pm
Thank you, L., for reading and commenting.
Hoarding can be shocking. We've tried to clear paths in there, but even rearranging creates anxiety and sometimes rage.
She's so afraid we'll take something out, throw it away.
Amazing, really.
Thanks again.
Hoarding can be shocking. We've tried to clear paths in there, but even rearranging creates anxiety and sometimes rage.
She's so afraid we'll take something out, throw it away.
Amazing, really.
Thanks again.
Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 4:22pm
In life hoarding takes many forms. Emotions also pile up and weight one down into a maze, always trying to get in not out. Clever write!
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Re: Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 4:43pm
Thanks, anvinvil.
You're so right. We hold on to so many things that could set us free.
Thank you again.
J.
You're so right. We hold on to so many things that could set us free.
Thank you again.
J.
Re. BASTILLE
24th Apr 2020 11:24pm
I watched the show "Hoarders" once—once. I was horrified at how people lived. You really captured it here, Jav.
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25th Apr 2020 1:53pm
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25th Apr 2020 6:29pm
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Re. BASTILLE
26th Apr 2020 5:27am
I can understand this, I love old things, have lots of them but I try to keep it to a minimum. It's funny how, the older you get, the stronger old memories become and the more relics that evoke them become an insulation against the chill of a changing world that marches on. I still look at the worlds events through the old square TV that my Dad gave me. I really enjoyed this read :)
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Re: Re. BASTILLE
26th Apr 2020 1:03pm
Thanks for reading and commenting.
Clutter isn't so bad.
Hoarding is dangerous and debilitating.
She likes it in there, though.
With her piles and stacks of stuff.
Keeps us all away.
Thanks again.
J.
Clutter isn't so bad.
Hoarding is dangerous and debilitating.
She likes it in there, though.
With her piles and stacks of stuff.
Keeps us all away.
Thanks again.
J.