Locked in a cage with anxiety

 
Why is it that the simplilesst of things makes me panic?
 
Drowning in all these thoughts makes me feel like the titanic;
 
Lost at sea,
 
Waiting for someone to discover the shell that once was me.  
 
It is hard for me to meet new people because I feel like a disapointment,
 
I could possibly prepare myself If only I were clairvoyant.  
 
I'm trapped but the only one who can set me free is the person who put me in this cage,
 
I trapped myself some how and I know that sounds so strange.
 
I didnt choose to close myself off, but I also didnt do anything to escape it,
 
Id rather die than live like this and It hurts to admit it.