Not the same without you

It's not the same, not anymore when you left you took more than I could have ever known, a piece of my heart that will forever be missing all I can do is play back the memories an listen to the breeze pass by silencing my cries, I miss you words will never be enough I got to deal with it you told me life was tough, its hard to believe that four months have slipped by since youve died each day I try but its hard to cope lost the hopes that someone would tell me it was just a bad joke days like this I reminisce just to get a piece of mind I'm wondering why you left us all behind in time we will see each other once again but till then all I can do is drift into the past gotta pick up a mask to show  a smile I don't look foward to Christmas anymore its just another day like the many before its lost its meaning an its once familiar sounds you took em with you too the ground i ain't mad at you u know that right, but tonight was supposed to be special filled with laughter an smiles, telling stories of the past glories giving thanks for another year but how can I when your not here if I drank I would dedicate you a beer this verse will have to suffice pondering yet again asking Christ why without an answer I am left none that I can think of on my behalf other than it was time for you to have a good nights sleep an be relieved from here, you know me I'm not the religious type but I guess God thought you were ripe enough to be plucked from the tree of despair its not fair, but it was your time to be set free who am I to hold you down brings me a frown that we are no longer bound together I wonder if with time it will get better, you always said when I die I dont want no one to cry I want to be surrounded by friends an alcohol to keep me company now I can see you truly didnt care you went out the way you lived probably fucked up beyond belief probably why your funeral wasn't surrounded by too much grief utter disbelief when you were layed out in the coffin, tears flowed with no end in sight it was useless trying to fight the feelings that arised an flowed down my cheeks despising the fact that your time was over an you would never come over on days like this Christmas, birthdays any day just kickin back enjoying the suns rays its too late now but I guess I'm just to fucken young to realize my mistakes till its too late I'm sorry that I didnt take full advantage of the time we spent but realize you left your dent I looked up to you those words are true I'm out of words grasping for air catching my breath finally able to rest in bed this pain no longer looms over my head, I know you looking down Ima gonna make you proud just you watch