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60 and Counting
The big 60
what a celebration
what a party
let me adjust the grammar
What? A Celebration?
What? A party?
emphasis really matters
as does punctuation
I was surrounded by family
I was visited by kith and kin
I was surrounded by family?
I was visited by kith and kin?
questions rhetorical
answers metaphorical
I was surrounded by family
all carrying sniper rifles of hate
I was visited by kith and kin
carrying suicide vests for me to try on
blood being thicker than water is a lie
human unconditional love is a myth
blood being thicker than water
depends on how much it is diluted
human unconditional love is a myth
this can only be received by dogs
was I left alone to die of a broken heart at 60?
it is always an obvious case of yes and no
the people who leave you on your own at 60
obviously care not whether you live or die
family, friends, internet pals, and ex's included
now filed in a cabinet drawer marked "Toxic."
this is the way it had to be
I was given no choice in the matter
what saved me was strange in my experience
sadly it is rare but it is human kindness
I now see these people as angels in human form
emanating light and love, teaching me my value
I do have worth and my life has meaning
for 60 years I saw myself as unloveable
a cripple, a legless cowboy, used and abused for gain
a good for nothing, baptised in torture and pain
but the angels see in me a very different story
they discern the truth of who I really am and come to rescue
this gathering of angels who really care
don't let my stumbling off the cliff edge
Being now 60 I have a few things to say
I will try to be brief:
for the haters and the bullies
for those, I have sought forgiveness
to have it spat right back in my face
the wrong and evildoers
to the abusers, current and historical
I now send them Love and Light
and most importantly forgiveness
my door is now forever open
apart from those that continue
their toxic behaviour
I wish them no harm or ill
the universe knows their name
for internet friends with birthday wishes
with those who gave gifts of love and support
cake, home baking, and sarcastic T-Shirts
for those who made special handcrafted cards
for those who help with ongoing healing and wisdom
for those who do things to raise your spirits
a smile, a message, a hug (Real or Cyber)
also for those, I don't agree with
those who don't see eye to eye
I will never do you harm
I will never wish you ill
I only intend raining on you
with the light and love of the universe
with untold blessings and sweet dreams
this I do because I have a list of names
but this is going out to all listed
I am old so sorry if my memory is mist
Missy, Ethan, Angelique, David, Isla,
Harris, Uma, Ragnar, Willow, Taryn, Daniel,
Eliza, Peter, Beverly, Len, Lynn, Grace, Ann,
Magdalena, Helen, Jessica, Delores, Muriel
Margaret, Caroline, Gladys, Mike, Alan,
Honoria, Lagertha, Josh, Pandora, and
Audrey a flame will always burn.
if you think you should be on that list
if you want to be on that list
then you already are
forgive my misty mind
what a celebration
what a party
let me adjust the grammar
What? A Celebration?
What? A party?
emphasis really matters
as does punctuation
I was surrounded by family
I was visited by kith and kin
I was surrounded by family?
I was visited by kith and kin?
questions rhetorical
answers metaphorical
I was surrounded by family
all carrying sniper rifles of hate
I was visited by kith and kin
carrying suicide vests for me to try on
blood being thicker than water is a lie
human unconditional love is a myth
blood being thicker than water
depends on how much it is diluted
human unconditional love is a myth
this can only be received by dogs
was I left alone to die of a broken heart at 60?
it is always an obvious case of yes and no
the people who leave you on your own at 60
obviously care not whether you live or die
family, friends, internet pals, and ex's included
now filed in a cabinet drawer marked "Toxic."
this is the way it had to be
I was given no choice in the matter
what saved me was strange in my experience
sadly it is rare but it is human kindness
I now see these people as angels in human form
emanating light and love, teaching me my value
I do have worth and my life has meaning
for 60 years I saw myself as unloveable
a cripple, a legless cowboy, used and abused for gain
a good for nothing, baptised in torture and pain
but the angels see in me a very different story
they discern the truth of who I really am and come to rescue
this gathering of angels who really care
don't let my stumbling off the cliff edge
Being now 60 I have a few things to say
I will try to be brief:
for the haters and the bullies
for those, I have sought forgiveness
to have it spat right back in my face
the wrong and evildoers
to the abusers, current and historical
I now send them Love and Light
and most importantly forgiveness
my door is now forever open
apart from those that continue
their toxic behaviour
I wish them no harm or ill
the universe knows their name
for internet friends with birthday wishes
with those who gave gifts of love and support
cake, home baking, and sarcastic T-Shirts
for those who made special handcrafted cards
for those who help with ongoing healing and wisdom
for those who do things to raise your spirits
a smile, a message, a hug (Real or Cyber)
also for those, I don't agree with
those who don't see eye to eye
I will never do you harm
I will never wish you ill
I only intend raining on you
with the light and love of the universe
with untold blessings and sweet dreams
this I do because I have a list of names
but this is going out to all listed
I am old so sorry if my memory is mist
Missy, Ethan, Angelique, David, Isla,
Harris, Uma, Ragnar, Willow, Taryn, Daniel,
Eliza, Peter, Beverly, Len, Lynn, Grace, Ann,
Magdalena, Helen, Jessica, Delores, Muriel
Margaret, Caroline, Gladys, Mike, Alan,
Honoria, Lagertha, Josh, Pandora, and
Audrey a flame will always burn.
if you think you should be on that list
if you want to be on that list
then you already are
forgive my misty mind
Published 6th Feb 2020
Author's Note
I am a becoming
I know not what
I know not what
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Anonymous
6th Feb 2020 11:58pm
“I am a becoming
I know not what”
Would be such a great poem title. Almost a micro poem.
They do say that 60 is the new 40 bear... here’s hoping! I’m glad you’re finding this new path. There are many paths up the mountain. The only people wasting their time are those that tell you you’re going the wrong way because it’s not their way.
Healing takes time. It’s messy, but worth it.
Mad love, ya twat. 😊
-M
I know not what”
Would be such a great poem title. Almost a micro poem.
They do say that 60 is the new 40 bear... here’s hoping! I’m glad you’re finding this new path. There are many paths up the mountain. The only people wasting their time are those that tell you you’re going the wrong way because it’s not their way.
Healing takes time. It’s messy, but worth it.
Mad love, ya twat. 😊
-M
11th Mar 2020 4:48am
(((((((((( Love and Huge Hugs ))))))))))
Most humans that I see are busily walking down the mountain, not a great idea when there is a flood coming. Time is all I have and the healing process is moving forward and yes it can be extremely difficult laying such demons to rest. I will endevour to do it or do my best
Rick ,......................... <3
Most humans that I see are busily walking down the mountain, not a great idea when there is a flood coming. Time is all I have and the healing process is moving forward and yes it can be extremely difficult laying such demons to rest. I will endevour to do it or do my best
Rick ,......................... <3
7th Feb 2020 2:23pm
Dear D,
Happy Birthday! And many happy returns. I hope you enjoyed your day. This is a lovely write in reviewing all your gifts you’ve received and given to friends and family. Hugs and kisses! H🌷
Happy Birthday! And many happy returns. I hope you enjoyed your day. This is a lovely write in reviewing all your gifts you’ve received and given to friends and family. Hugs and kisses! H🌷
24th Feb 2020 8:39pm
The day came and went - I am still here :-))))))))))))))))))))))
thank you for your comments and support - "Gifts are still gifts even if you don't unwrap them." [David Macleod 2020]
thank you for your comments and support - "Gifts are still gifts even if you don't unwrap them." [David Macleod 2020]
Anonymous
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24th Feb 2020 8:36pm
As with always, your comments make me smile broadly and raise my spirits :-))))))
Thank you, Ethan, so so much
Howard,......
Thank you, Ethan, so so much
Howard,......
8th Feb 2020 10:09pm
I'm always moved and resonate with your unabashed candor. 💖 Powerfully spilled.
24th Feb 2020 8:34pm
Candour is my middle name,..... Oh no, its Condor (LMAO)
Thank you :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Thank you :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
