Special

Even though you like to think and wish
that you're the only one
who does what you do
or feels what you feel
or thinks how you think,
in reality
you're not that unique
or that different really,
as we speak
someone else out there
 is living exactly how you are
going through the same changes
caught in similar circumstances
not taking chances
just like you
just convincing ourselves that
we're about to break through.
It's a game we like to play
to get ourselves past each day
yet still secretly stressed
about our death slowly creeping,
each extensive thought about this inevitable event causes us to
lose our breath,
why can't we just feel good about it
or about our lives right now?
freaks me out how
so many of us
hate this experience
or hate ourselves
and want this life to end
it's utterly sad
and unanimously seen worldwide
just take a look each and every suicide
endless fucking statistics to
 show everyone how fucking hopeless
so many souls are
really sad and
baffles the shit out of me
but also I can see how these tragedies
came to be
they probably never felt free
or something terrible happened to them that followed them forever after
or they simply didn't wanna live anymore
couldn't take the torture within.
It seems to be a place most of us
 have been in at some point.