Each scream within

These tormenting thoughts
roaming round and round,
they seem to never
not make a sound,
 answers never to be found I feel
as I peel back the layers
revealing more of what's real.

Reflecting ridiculously
aimlessly analyzing..
pointless ponderings
pushing me deeper and deeper..
dragging myself down daily
it's a damn bad habit
hard to break
even harder to take
if I keep this up
I won't make it long
but I gotta stay strong
through each senseless or
 selfish struggle,
through each moment of silence
through the underlying uncertainty
overwhelming everyone it seems,
through the waking nightmares
and drawn out dreams,
each little scream
within
reminding me over and over again
each reaction is a choice
whether or not I acknowledge
or realize if it's conscious or subconscious..
I create my own suffering
so much so these days
as I stay so deep in a daze
so far far away in my mind.