Growth

Smart kid
Top of the class
Perfect attendance
Homework done fast

Friends with most and teachers agreed
Of all of the students most prone to succeed

Last year of primary he gained lots of weight
Saw his friends growing up, staying in shape

This killed his confidence, bullies weren't helping
First was his body, now mind is unhealthy

Quit football, the one thing he did out of school
Keeping his shirt on when hitting the pool
Soon he closed off from all socialising
Told himself he needed nobody besides him

Aged 13, one guy from school came up
Told him how to bring his health game up
Now his attention was turned to the gym
Wasn't himself if he wasn't lifting

Years of seclusion and shying from girls
This dudes solution was trying the curls

But too much depression had made him unsociable
Faced with decisions, he couldn't cope at all

Another young man in his class was quiet
Decided to sit by him, smile and try it

"Hey man, you good?" "I hate existing"

"Wanna hang out and try work out "why is this?"?"

"Fuck it, why not, not like much else is happening"
Spent whole nights shit talking, next morning back at it

Best friends, lived close, neighbours had noticed
"the two emo dudes have made social progress"

One butt his nose in with jokes that were poking
Fun at the one with man tits worth groping

His alpha badge earned so he chose what would take place
"I think we should burn smoke, I know who has great 8ths"

Hit up Frank for the dank bags
Always had good shit or fluff that ain't that bad

Dude never even blew on a ciggy before
Till he hit doobs but had no dudes to get him more

So now he's fat, lazy, unmotivated
Smoking away pocket money mum gave him

Couldn't make friends, except with depressed kids
Slept through his lessons, a best he neglected to listen to any advice he was given

Needed to grow up, but no luck

Weed PS2, Tenkaichi was his lifestyle
His mate's little nephew wanted to knock his lights out

1 friend in a room full of stoners and dickheads
18 years old barely once got his dick wet
Blowing his dough on the dro and some cig-rettes
30 quid daily, surprised he ain't sick yet

Damage was done but no noticed was taken
Parents weren't bothered how the house always vacant

Siblings were living inside their own bubble
Nobody able to save him from trouble

Till one day, dude was on youtube
Perusing and viewing like many of you do

He found a lecture on human behaviour and psyche, he'd always been into the mind
So he set aside time from his "hectic schedule" to learn about why he was wishing to die

"happiness isn't in having or being, but going, or reaching for, that's proper meaning"

"Once you've attained something that you set out for, you realise it's progress that evens us out more"

"Don't think that having is all there is to it,
Fun is found most when you're forwardly moving"

"set yourself goals, build up moment
Compare you to you not what your friends have done"

So dude set out on a mission
To burn off the dead wood to ash like good riddance
And from what was left a new man had risen
Whose hatred was lessened and past was forgiven

Not yet what he could be with years of this practice
But able to look back, with gratitude at his
Path that he started on, smart and attractive
And saw any bad bits as challenges, that's it