Nervous Moon

I wish I didn't get so nervous around you
I have had your body, naked and
moving against my own, long ago, but still
I bite my lip afraid to let anything slip
But I know, god, I know it's in my eyes
How much I still care about you
How my feelings still course so strong in me
I wish I could open up my mouth
"Do you want to make out?"
To foolishly scream in absolute terror
Something incredibly dumb like that
I can't even imagine that act
To fearlessly declare my feelings
I can't even imagine, I simply can't
I can't touch you, and I want to
To reach out and touch your arms
Those hands, your neck, your chest
I could go on and on about you
How insanely attracted I am to you
My heart pounds when you talk about
The things that make you so excited
Nearly vibrating in joy you seem so happy
And then my heart breaks itself
I quietly whimper all the things wrong
Crumbling under the weight of insecurities
You saw me young and beautiful
With blemishes few and far between
I've been so hard on this body
You don't know this body... Not this body
I wish I wasnt so scared of you
For you are still you at the core of it
I can't imagine how you see me now
Seeing me, seeing the pain inside of me
You can never understand just how much
You matter to me, your impact on me
I know you are not perfect, but to me
No one compares to the way you burn
I'd hide myself in your light if only my
Darkness would fade for just a few seconds
If we were solar system entities
You would be the sun for you burn so bright
And I would be the moon, imperfect and pale
Both mighty in and of themselves
But so very different in expression