Fed Up

I'm tired of this darkness  
I'm tired if this death  
I'm yelling in my head so loud I can hardly catch my breath
 
'Why?'  
Is in a stream that's screaming loud and endless
Rock bottom never seemed so muthafuckin bottomless  
 
And maybe I can't remember the last time I was here
Maybe it was the hospital when I was bleeding from wrist to ear
Or maybe it was the year that I just did what I could
To fool all my peers into thinking that I was still good
 
Within me the darkness itself is begging for some light
To kill the thoughts  
Swarming  
Building  
Bursting  
From inside
 
This tide has to shift
I swear I'm losing my mind  
Something's gotta change  
There's nowhere left to hide
 
When did I get so weak  
When did I get so numb
To let my talents go to waste  
Do you see what we've become?  
 
'Why, let me out!' is in an endless stream
It needs to stop
I need to stop  
This deafening scream.