purgatory

 
this is hell
the one people talk about after you die
except I'm not dead
I've wandered in while still alive

I'm being burned alive
I want to keep you
I need to be on my way

perhaps hell is really a state of mind
could be I'm being called onto something else
to a place you can't follow
maybe both of us are simply at a crossroads
yours leading down one path...mine another

so damn it's really self imposed purgatory I've entered
because I refuse to move on without you
the flames are being turned up
it's getting hotter but I won't go

my future is calling
I've always had a way of knowing--
when my life was going to change for the better

you can't go where I'm going
I don't want to go forward without you
but there is no other way
into the future I must walk

I thought it would be with you
I'm sad it's not