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I spend my nights out on the lakeside
Dreaming of you and all that we had
Watching the water ripple outward
And I wonder, “Did it really get this bad?”
I thought you were a cooling touch
To the burning embers of my soul
But all those times I felt too much
You heavily doused my searing coals
I lied to all those who would speak out
Saying you’re much better than you were
And I almost believed that shit myself
But cycle had already started to recur
I thought you had the kindest heart
One I had gotten so lucky to have found
But once your demons lashed out at me
You buried my heart deep in the ground
I used to think you’d have saved it for me
Maybe I shouldn’t have trusted you with it
But I sit back on the grass and I exhale
Suddenly it feels like my soul really took a hit
Yet the water never stops rippling
Though I don’t hear anything but quiet
It seems that’s what you’ve done to me
This mess in my heart has turned into a riot
God, it’s crushing, and it’s damning
That I can’t make sense of this confusion
If I could go back, you know I would
And try to wreck this whole illusion
Dreaming of you and all that we had
Watching the water ripple outward
And I wonder, “Did it really get this bad?”
I thought you were a cooling touch
To the burning embers of my soul
But all those times I felt too much
You heavily doused my searing coals
I lied to all those who would speak out
Saying you’re much better than you were
And I almost believed that shit myself
But cycle had already started to recur
I thought you had the kindest heart
One I had gotten so lucky to have found
But once your demons lashed out at me
You buried my heart deep in the ground
I used to think you’d have saved it for me
Maybe I shouldn’t have trusted you with it
But I sit back on the grass and I exhale
Suddenly it feels like my soul really took a hit
Yet the water never stops rippling
Though I don’t hear anything but quiet
It seems that’s what you’ve done to me
This mess in my heart has turned into a riot
God, it’s crushing, and it’s damning
That I can’t make sense of this confusion
If I could go back, you know I would
And try to wreck this whole illusion
Published 29th Jun 2019
Author's Note
Writing on some old “feels” today :P
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29th Jun 2019 1:42pm
That heartache is the hardest part, don't be so hard on yourself. It takes time to really truly get to know someone and our hearts don't think, they only feel. It is easy to latch onto the euphoria and crave. In time those feelings will lessen and again you'll be searching for new love.
29th Jun 2019 1:49pm
Oh I know, I think the hardest part is to not hate the “relationship” part of it all instead of just the person. I think that’s hard to snap out of. Thanks for the read and uplifting comment, Tim!
(If only our hearts could think though!)
(If only our hearts could think though!)
29th Jun 2019 2:05pm
Dearest ill say you need to take moments to let your heart heal. I dont mean to but when i see things like you write here i see my daughters in the future its heart breaking. Big hug dear hold your head up.
29th Jun 2019 2:13pm
Awww, don’t let your heart break because of my writing. I’m actually perfectly fine. I write most of my stuff on things I’ve felt before, not many are “currently feeling” kind of poems. But that’s such a sweet comment, thank you! And thank you for taking the time to read and leave me feedback!❤️
29th Jun 2019 4:32pm
I don't know about You
but for me, it takes about 3 to 6 months to get over someone
and then after i am not looking and when it happens anew
it happens.
Spilling ink after ink all the emotions associated with a break-up is actually a good thing for our hearts.
I rarely post (here) my angry spills but it doesn't mean i don't write 'em or not have them tucked away somewhere.
I'd give You a hug right now
and so just know i support You
but for me, it takes about 3 to 6 months to get over someone
and then after i am not looking and when it happens anew
it happens.
Spilling ink after ink all the emotions associated with a break-up is actually a good thing for our hearts.
I rarely post (here) my angry spills but it doesn't mean i don't write 'em or not have them tucked away somewhere.
I'd give You a hug right now
and so just know i support You
29th Jun 2019 10:22pm
Aww, Tallen you’re the sweetest. I think it’s more bittersweet memories than anything. You’re too kind! Thank you for reading and leaving this lovely comment! ❤️
29th Jun 2019 6:17pm
29th Jun 2019 10:23pm
Thank you, BuddyDog, I’m glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading and commenting☺️
You did your best Liv but he couldn't walk on water. You need someone oarsome!
I heard that only Jesus managed that but I can see that you clearly deserved better!
I heard that only Jesus managed that but I can see that you clearly deserved better!
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29th Jun 2019 11:24pm
Well penned capturing your thoughts, emotions and hurt. There is always self-doubt, and at times we don't see what is right in front of us. Afterwards, you always wonder why you couldn't see what is plain to you now.
29th Jun 2019 11:51pm
RIGHT? Truer words have never been spoken, DaVinci! Thank you for the read and understanding comment :)
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