Self Sabatoge

Avoiding my greatness because the world is loving on mediocrity
Preaching that I'm a God, man, the hypocrisy
I mean, I am a God in the flesh but, lately I ain't been acting like one
Depression and fear keeping my reactions stuck on run
Run, run running myself into the ground
Digging in search of my God Given crown
Meanwhile, I can't feel it resting upon my crowww-anium
& how is it that in my own body I feel alien
Trying to keep myself from feelin' insane again
So I say again to the pain within that reigns me in please let me inhale the scent of something other than my own sins
Because the feeling of suffocating is nothing but frustrating and I just can't take it anymore
So to the God within please show me another door
I'm growing tired of looking in the mirror into the eyes of a self-saboteur