the shattering silence of goodbye

 
the brittle night grate on my nerves
my tears were strobe lighted by the neon words divorce
chewing glass I spat my disdain it was my fault  
 
I was out of reach...you couldn't touch me here
not inside my brokenness
the isolation of it so complete
 
we never stood a chance you gave me all your love
I sold it cheap for a quick fix
bankrupt of feeling you could no longer invest in me
or our penniless bank of trust
 
I wailed inside myself with a powerful sadness
a loser, I wanted to die when you said goodbye
our delicate love affair manhandled by my carelessness
 
god how I broke when you shut the door on me
left in the past as a part of history
I would never be the same
 
your soul was merged with mine
when you broke away I collapsed in on myself
my identity without you...voided
I don't know who I am if not your wife
 
I wail now at the wall of refusal
because you refuse to see me
it hurts you too much to see me so empty
 
void of life...  
your broken woman  
it's too late...you can't help me
 
so I die a little more inside  
each night alone without you
 
the silence of your goodbye  
still echoes in the hallways
I'm so sorry babe