Cicardian Blue Grizzles

Cicardian Blue Grizzles
(Eight of 30 -- Official DUP NaPo/GloPoWrimo 2019)
 
Everyday  
**breathe…..Tallen**  
every night
Every  everything I cry.
I got tested in the year 2012  
I feared the worst……..something
SOMETHING is very fucking wrong
with me.
 
I still cry.  
I am crying as I type here.
I hate this sometimes
I have no idea why,  no idea how
and would not wish this (Gift?)
on anyone………
 
Often I don’t understand how  
I am able to endure this.
Yet each day I brave the sun
rise with the knowledge
I will be crying for  
a reason
no reason  
fucked  
up reasons. . .
 
sometime in the day or in the night.
 
I live alone and lost many
through no fault of my own
other than this stupid  
constant daily  
shitstorm.
 
I have been given
hope, though
as a beautiful  
Twin Flame
has tripped  
and fallen on
 my Tao;
She has  
not moved
an inch since.
 
I cry anew
for a  
different
Reason.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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