damn it...

 
okay this is for you
it's been a long time in coming
eight years to be exact
damn it how you affect me
still to this day...
 
you make me feel weak
like a trembling little girl
when you walk in the room
 
you haven't been in here for years
really I thought it was all my imagination
that you were ever feeling me
 
I mean I had fantasies
cos I felt this internal connection with you
of you quietly stalking my pages
remaining stoic in your ache
keeping things close to your chest
 
putting it all out there  
would just make us burn
wouldn't it?
 
our feelings laid out
the cards have been dealt
you called my bluff
now my heart is on the table
 
you knew though, didn't you?
you knew all along
that I loved you
it was never a secret
I always had a tell in my eyes
 
deep down I knew you felt me too
I just didn't want to admit it
it would hurt too much
cos I can't have you
 
you fuck and fight
burying yourself in the flavor of the day
take fists of fury  
to the faces of your opponents
I wonder if it holds off the demons
 
you send a current through me
straight to my pleasure zone
straight to my heart
when you enter the room
damn it...
 
well you already know the rest
cos my heart is out there...on display
keep it close to you
when you fuck the lass of the day
 
I'm sorry...