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Sinister
you got hard on my misery
masturbated to my torment
when weakness brought me to my knees
your evil laughter gave me whiplash
you sought to buy me for the night
with platitudes
like a cheap whore
you picked up off the streets
you raped my faith
then forced me to wear it
a dirty dress you ejaculated on
my shame brought you pleasure
you gloried in my sin
and gorged on my guilt
in the depths, I fell
then rose to truly see you
while in my mourning times
I forgot who you really are
with an appetite for depravity
you feed off my plate of pain
you're the devil
then without even a hint of regret
you place me in a pit of demons
lust glowing in your eyes
you watch on
while I burn in it
Author's Note
my feelings towards God today...
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Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 10:24pm
the hurt and pain not the blame mind and heart were miles apart
scold me not
beautiful write
scold me not
beautiful write
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Re: Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 10:28pm
thank you dearest Hackerstacker for the read and thoughtful comment...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
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Re: Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 10:33pm
thank you graciously dearest Bender for the insight on this write you're right my anger is there...
I deeply appreciate your thoughts...
love Brenda 💕
I deeply appreciate your thoughts...
love Brenda 💕
Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 10:57pm
This man sounds both sinister and a sadist. If pain turns him on it's time to move on, seems to me A very dark but amazing write, Brenda.
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Re: Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 11:16pm
dearest Sir Crow just between us I'll tell you a secret this is how I felt about God today shhh don't tell anyone lol...yes a Sadist at times it seems...
thank you I deeply appreciate your thoughts...
love Brenda
thank you I deeply appreciate your thoughts...
love Brenda
Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 11:26pm
The torment is rich is this write. Dark, yet reflective and raw. Solid ink!
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Re: Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 11:28pm
thank you graciously dearest Tender One... you brought me smiles...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
Re. Sinister
Anonymous
18th Dec 2018 11:47pm
Loss of faith, of any kind, is one of the most painful feelings to experience. It's also the beginning of a journey to answers you might not otherwise have ever sought. I love you, my beautiful Dark Angel
...ever your Willow
...ever your Willow
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Re: Re. Sinister
18th Dec 2018 11:53pm
thank you beautiful Willow for getting this write and your deep insight on it...my old faith is lost but in the process gained a new kind of faith...I think the universe is trying to teach me humility...that's the vibe I'm getting anyway but it's making me a little angry lol blushes...
I love you...
love Brenda
I love you...
love Brenda
Re. Sinister
19th Dec 2018 00:07am
The deliberate ugliness and horror of this poem is intense. It’s like the narrator is rubbing the reader’s face in dirt. The one comma seems out of place as there’s no other punctuation. Otherwise, thank you for a compelling read.
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Re: Re. Sinister
19th Dec 2018 00:43am
thank you graciously dearest Jack for such a great review of this write...
love you my friend...
love Brenda 💕
love you my friend...
love Brenda 💕
Re. Sinister
19th Dec 2018 1:32am
Like brightness and kindness can change our faith to higher level both in ourselves and your God...If you study the bible there is a lot of darkness and pain dealt out to show you have faith...As you penned so well faith can reach a higher level from anger within your soul to demand more of your faith...You truly understand all your depth in your heart, mind and being my dearest Brenda...
love Thomas...💞🌹🐺
love Thomas...💞🌹🐺
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Re: Re. Sinister
19th Dec 2018 3:17pm
thank you graciously dearest Thomas for your deeply thoughtful comment... yes raise faith to a higher level I believe that too...I sincerely appreciate your thoughts...
love Brenda 💕
love Brenda 💕
Re. Sinister
Anonymous
19th Dec 2018 6:53pm
That's not my picture! Hashanah...seriously though yes the almighty can make shores of us all and cast one into the dismal fray...my wife says if thwere us suchange a thing it wasn't Lucifer that went down but god and that's why life is so full of pleasure and pain. Enjoyable...Sinister
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Re: Re. Sinister
21st Dec 2018 1:59pm
ha, ha dearest Sinister One I deeply appreciate your thoughts on this one...
love Brenda 💕
love Brenda 💕
Re. Sinister
9th Feb 2019 11:18pm
Re: Re. Sinister
9th Feb 2019 11:22pm
thank you graciously dearest Xmar indeed... you honor me going through my pages...
love Brenda 💕
love Brenda 💕