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butterfly
uncovering true beauty
is she in there...
awaiting the tender kiss of the sun?
little vulnerable blossom
petal by petal opening
to reveal the real me
I'm frightened because she is gentle
hidden for so long now
no one knows her
possibly not even me
her thoughts...quiet whispers
I can barely hear
she is singing now
knowing her day of freedom has come
Brenda kind soul
shackled by a drug
the storm raged
somehow she survived
emerging now quietly she comes
in dream time I saw her
the demons said she would never write
she answered my voice will be heard
in the delicate rain, she stood
taking in the fresh air
a new day before her
evolving stretching
substance abuse my cocoon
transforming into the beauty
I was made to be
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Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 4:37pm
Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 4:38pm
thank you dearest Tim is it alright to be frightened?
I appreciate the loving comment deeply...
love Brenda
I appreciate the loving comment deeply...
love Brenda
Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 4:39pm
Re. butterfly
Anonymous
14th Sep 2018 4:39pm
And by the gods in heaven, she will sore to great heights! J.

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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 4:44pm
thank you dearest Juvenalis my demons lie to me and say I won't be able to write sober...my inner lady stood up to them in dream time and said I would write even better ๐
it may take me time but I'll get there...
I deeply appreciate the love beautiful soul...
love Brenda
it may take me time but I'll get there...
I deeply appreciate the love beautiful soul...
love Brenda
Re: Re. butterfly
Anonymous
- Edited 14th Sep 2018 4:58pm
14th Sep 2018 4:57pm
Remember this truth: talent is a gift. You either have it or you don't. You have it. Drugs, alcohol and whatnot, don't give you talent. It's something you have. Drugs can take away inhibitions or make them stronger. But truly you are great because you are Brenda! No one, nor anything can take that away from you. โค๏ธ

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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 5:16pm
thank you dearest Juvenalis I believe what I saw in the dream... my inner self saying I would write even better...so it begins my journey into sobriety...i'm grateful for your presence along the way ๐
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. butterfly
Anonymous
14th Sep 2018 5:09pm
Brenda,
You were beautiful before, beautiful as it happened, and beautiful AFTER the transformation! You're a fantastic writer!
Thank God she survived! And I really don't think anything, at all, could stop your beautiful writing.
Great view of you!
Matthew.
You were beautiful before, beautiful as it happened, and beautiful AFTER the transformation! You're a fantastic writer!
Thank God she survived! And I really don't think anything, at all, could stop your beautiful writing.
Great view of you!
Matthew.

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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 5:17pm
thank you dearest Matthew for such a beautiful and heartfelt comment...I will continue to write as I discover who I truly and without drugs and alcohol so happy to have you as a fellow journeyer...
love Brenda ๐
love Brenda ๐
Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 5:30pm
Such a beautiful unfolding dear ๐ I too had the same fear and I did notice once I got clean, that there was a change in my pen. But I held onto patience and knew deep down I would write again, the challenge can really help us evolve.
Now I sing and I dance, and I write... while Iโm sober ๐ Let the gentle one spread her wings poetess.
Now I sing and I dance, and I write... while Iโm sober ๐ Let the gentle one spread her wings poetess.
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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 5:57pm
thank you beautiful Nightbird for sharing your own story with me I am encouraged by your victory over addiction...I will be patient and allow myself to heal...
my inner soul feels vulnerable at the moment... I'm sure it will pass and I feel stronger and stronger in time ๐
I deeply appreciate you...
love Brenda
my inner soul feels vulnerable at the moment... I'm sure it will pass and I feel stronger and stronger in time ๐
I deeply appreciate you...
love Brenda
Anonymous
- Edited 30th May 2019 3:51pm
14th Sep 2018 5:50pm
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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 5:58pm
thank you dearest Bender yesterday was a hard day, last night too, it will be that way for awhile I'm accepting of that it will still be a time until I can fly...
I deeply cherish you...
love Brenda ๐น
I deeply cherish you...
love Brenda ๐น
Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 6:12pm
that last stanza had me come back to this one twice
"evolving stretching
substance abuse my cocoon "
a most excellent write smackdown. today feels like a good day to breathe anew.
"evolving stretching
substance abuse my cocoon "
a most excellent write smackdown. today feels like a good day to breathe anew.
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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 6:18pm
thank you dearest Samael it's a new day with more poetry on the horizon...
I appreciate you feeling this one...
love Brenda aka Crimsin ๐
I appreciate you feeling this one...
love Brenda aka Crimsin ๐
Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 7:33pm
You're a strong lady, Brenda. I wish I had your fortitude, to say no to the various substances I abuse once and for all. You're on the road to recovery and better writing, although I love what you've penned so far. One day I will kick all the drugs, prescription and otherwise. Please wish me luck. Great write, honest and true.
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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 8:33pm
dearest Sir Crow I'm on prescritption meds too for my mental illness so don't feel bad about those... as for anything else I pray for your release from... I know just how hard it is...
love you my friend...
Brenda ๐
love you my friend...
Brenda ๐
Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 8:43pm
I am merely curious of one thing in this beautiful write of yours.
Just a tiny thing I've noticed.
The user Crimsin on here...her name is also Brenda.
And I enjoy both of your writing styles greatly.
I can't help but wonder if you two know each other or maybe even are one in the same Brenda.
Best regards,
~T
Just a tiny thing I've noticed.
The user Crimsin on here...her name is also Brenda.
And I enjoy both of your writing styles greatly.
I can't help but wonder if you two know each other or maybe even are one in the same Brenda.
Best regards,
~T
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Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 9:16pm
yes dearest Tryston yes it's me Brenda or Crimsin as you know me...thank you for reading both of my accounts and showing love on them ๐
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re: Re. butterfly
14th Sep 2018 9:22pm
So then why two accounts?
You dont have to answer...Again its simple curiosity.
~T
You dont have to answer...Again its simple curiosity.
~T
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Re: Re. butterfly
15th Sep 2018 4:14pm
yes dearest Tryston I have two accounts I opened this one to talk about my drug issues privately in the beginning... now I'm not so shy about it...
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re: Re. butterfly
15th Sep 2018 8:24pm
I see...We appreciate you for who you are and the writing you bring to this site will always be legendary. :)
A good idea on your part though. ^~^
A good idea on your part though. ^~^
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Re. butterfly
I deleted my poem "Bourbon and Trouble" in honor of you. I don't want to glorify substance while you are trying to detox. I too have issues with alcohol. I don't depend on it but I like it too much. Btw you'll be happy to know that everything I've ever written was never under the influence of alcohol. My madness and mayhem is 100 percent straight Poetspeak. Fear not that your writing won't shine and lay down the law. It will ....
Courage woman
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Re: Re. butterfly
15th Sep 2018 4:18pm
thank you dearest Poet that's a beautiful gesture but you needn't worry about tempting me with alcohol the thought of it currently makes me ill...I have decided given the right circumstance I may have a cocktail but only one and only occasionally...I don't want to be too hard on myself...I'm happy to hear your writing comes from a sober mind... no one knows the kind of pressure I put on myself to produce quality writing even when my mind is working properly... I've decided I'm just going to write regardless for the joy and neccessity of it and see how that works...
I deeply appreciate your support...
love Brenda
I deeply appreciate your support...
love Brenda
Re. butterfly
15th Sep 2018 4:57pm
Petal by petal she transforms the reality, evolving stretching substance abuse my cocoon ,
transforming into the goddess I was made to be,
To show the world ever blossom is a triumphed of suffering........ Awesome.....
transforming into the goddess I was made to be,
To show the world ever blossom is a triumphed of suffering........ Awesome.....
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Re. butterfly
21st Sep 2018 3:00am