Submissions by nightbirdblue
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction “You can use my skin to bury secrets in, and I will settle you down...” ~Fiona Apple
ANGER POEM
Published
1st Nov 2019 5:53pm
1st Nov 2019 5:53pm
Trivial Children
Wet words are weeping
I lack vocabulary
Salting wounds that sting
Crave in quantity
Gripping at abandonment
I thought we were friends
But then you left me
Without a word, all alone
Darkness swallows me
I lack vocabulary
Salting wounds that sting
Crave in quantity
Gripping at abandonment
I thought we were friends
But then you left me
Without a word, all alone
Darkness swallows me
#rejection
#heartbroken
#shame
#ignorance
#despair
68 reads
3 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
29th Oct 2019 12:46pm
29th Oct 2019 12:46pm
Flakey Figures
I tore the fabric of my comfort
Into strips of bandages
That laced over my body
To repair the damages
I ripped the fabric of my mind
Distorted visions leaked out
Staining the only cleanliness
Held tight between my thighs
I danced around the fire
Engulfed in pulsing waves of heat
Until sanity flew away
Cackling back at me
I fell into the sky
Let the river carry me
Depositing my ashes
As rain upon the leaves
Into strips of bandages
That laced over my body
To repair the damages
I ripped the fabric of my mind
Distorted visions leaked out
Staining the only cleanliness
Held tight between my thighs
I danced around the fire
Engulfed in pulsing waves of heat
Until sanity flew away
Cackling back at me
I fell into the sky
Let the river carry me
Depositing my ashes
As rain upon the leaves
#secrets
#rebirth
#drugs
#boredom
#choices
104 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Oct 2019 7:10pm
28th Oct 2019 7:10pm
Goodbye
There was a part of me
That I had outgrown
I had to let it go
And I mourned for me
That me that was no longer
That which was no longer
Is now gone
That I had outgrown
I had to let it go
And I mourned for me
That me that was no longer
That which was no longer
Is now gone
#grief
#identity
#learning
#MovingOn
#acceptance
62 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
28th Oct 2019 7:03pm
28th Oct 2019 7:03pm
Reinforcement
I see you’ve had a child
A daughter with your eyes
The mother, only just of-age
And she doesn’t quite yet
Know the rhythm of your lies
I just can’t wrap my head around it
You’re full of so much fucking shit
And I haven’t cared about you in so long
But now I find myself unblocking
Find myself now stalking
These feelings I can’t contain
Like I’m trapped and want to run away
You fucked a girl the same age
As I was when you first fucked me
But this time you made a baby
And I thought I’d be happier for you
Moving on...
A daughter with your eyes
The mother, only just of-age
And she doesn’t quite yet
Know the rhythm of your lies
I just can’t wrap my head around it
You’re full of so much fucking shit
And I haven’t cared about you in so long
But now I find myself unblocking
Find myself now stalking
These feelings I can’t contain
Like I’m trapped and want to run away
You fucked a girl the same age
As I was when you first fucked me
But this time you made a baby
And I thought I’d be happier for you
Moving on...
#strength
#relationships
#abuse
#MovingOn
#StreamOfConsciousness
42 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
19th Oct 2019 1:42pm
19th Oct 2019 1:42pm
Paranoia Sinks Its Teeth
Been dealing with
Some monsters lately
In my dreams
They overtake me:
Hatred
Anger
Jealousy
My fear of
Being cheated
The dregs
Of inadequacy
I am not worthy
And I am drowning
In self pity
But it’s just
So
Heavy
I seek:
Kittens
Cigarettes
And Razor Blades
How could you
Really love me?
Can’t you see
The parasite
Living in me?
Do I fear
Confrontation?
Oh indeed
But you see
My voice
Has been suppressed
By those before...
Some monsters lately
In my dreams
They overtake me:
Hatred
Anger
Jealousy
My fear of
Being cheated
The dregs
Of inadequacy
I am not worthy
And I am drowning
In self pity
But it’s just
So
Heavy
I seek:
Kittens
Cigarettes
And Razor Blades
How could you
Really love me?
Can’t you see
The parasite
Living in me?
Do I fear
Confrontation?
Oh indeed
But you see
My voice
Has been suppressed
By those before...
#grief
#PTSD
#despair #nightmares
#despair #nightmares
71 reads
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Oct 2019 3:53pm
3rd Oct 2019 3:53pm
Open : Commence : Finalize : Repeat
This QuickBooks accounting
is multitasking maximized,
just using my brain as
an electronic mainframe -
rerouting and attaching,
uploading and backtracking...
and now it’s got me wondering
why my mind hasn't just
been replaced with the latest
iPad or Notebook?
Maybe I'm just
being trained to sustain
this workload in hopes
that one day
I'll evolve to another plane,
perhaps AI, or else
let’s face it -
what’s the fucking point?
is multitasking maximized,
just using my brain as
an electronic mainframe -
rerouting and attaching,
uploading and backtracking...
and now it’s got me wondering
why my mind hasn't just
been replaced with the latest
iPad or Notebook?
Maybe I'm just
being trained to sustain
this workload in hopes
that one day
I'll evolve to another plane,
perhaps AI, or else
let’s face it -
what’s the fucking point?
#rhyming
#satirical
#rap #StreamOfConsciousness
#rap #StreamOfConsciousness
70 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
20th Sep 2019 6:07pm
20th Sep 2019 6:07pm
Subservient
The only time
I am free
is when sitting
in the dark
You think I’m sleeping
or maybe reading
but I lie awake here
every night
I shroud myself
in daytime
lay bidding to
your master plans
I’ll lose sleep
to escape this nightmare
and I’ll be free of you
in the end
I am free
is when sitting
in the dark
You think I’m sleeping
or maybe reading
but I lie awake here
every night
I shroud myself
in daytime
lay bidding to
your master plans
I’ll lose sleep
to escape this nightmare
and I’ll be free of you
in the end
#abuse
#insomnia
#despair
#suffering
#determination
89 reads
2 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
20th Sep 2019 11:22am
20th Sep 2019 11:22am
Prophecy
#romantic
#LGBT
#lover
#sensual
#passion
232 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
10th Sep 2019 6:18pm
10th Sep 2019 6:18pm
Addicted to the Narcissist
puff puff yay
borderline insane
drugged toxic misanthropy
poison infected causality
seeking desperately out
wait for the come down
float away
borderline insane
drugged toxic misanthropy
poison infected causality
seeking desperately out
wait for the come down
float away
#abuse
#drugs
#FeelingTrapped
123 reads
1 Comment
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
10th Sep 2019 5:20pm
10th Sep 2019 5:20pm
Remaining in Magic (I Vow)
You are a delicate flower
Such as the daisy I observe
Late on a slow summer’s eve
Graced by the chirping of birds
The scent of Queen Ann’s Lace
Draws atent my gaze to you
Swirling about in the meadows
That we call home; what a valiant view
We laugh and dance like little girls
Stretching our arms up to the sky
And begin to slumber under the stars
The moon smiling upon us all night
So I dream of you in fairyland
A secret garden to explore
Each petal tells a different tale
Such as you wielding a...
Such as the daisy I observe
Late on a slow summer’s eve
Graced by the chirping of birds
The scent of Queen Ann’s Lace
Draws atent my gaze to you
Swirling about in the meadows
That we call home; what a valiant view
We laugh and dance like little girls
Stretching our arms up to the sky
And begin to slumber under the stars
The moon smiling upon us all night
So I dream of you in fairyland
A secret garden to explore
Each petal tells a different tale
Such as you wielding a...
#happiness
#girlfriend
#flowers
#nature
#admiration
142 reads
8 Comments
FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
6th Feb 2019 10:51pm
6th Feb 2019 10:51pm
Nightmarred
Last night, the twists of black bled a new instigation of dismay… The dark kitten, with a void punctured acerbic; hard and skeletal, is submerged in a steaming pool of white wine. A woman approaches, and observes to an out-drawn soul, “Oh child, it doesn’t hurt.” Then her lips moisten, as she turns the void with swift pounds of her razor-knuckled fist. The dark kitten hastens; thrashes, but remains silent to the void. Ever deep; the wound deepens. A sustained blood flow, unclotting. Then the girl, crying, appears; she implores the woman to heed, but the hag persists. Mourns of the child echo...
#dark
#cats
#despair #nightmares
#despair #nightmares
211 reads
8 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
6th Feb 2019 10:45pm
6th Feb 2019 10:45pm
The Third Dead Bird
While driving to work earlier today, I came to a country road where a considerable gathering of birds were basking gleefully on the warm sun-enriched pavement. Hoping they would scatter and fly out of my way, as any wise bird usually does, I didn’t touch the brake. Regrettably, halfway through the flock an unlucky fledgling hit the grill of my car. In the rearview mirror, I saw that I had killed it, as it lay limp amidst its more-fortunate community members.
Returning down that road later in the day, the birds had settled again in my way. I drove cautiously this time as not to harm...
Returning down that road later in the day, the birds had settled again in my way. I drove cautiously this time as not to harm...
#death
#birds
#satirical #ShortStory
#satirical #ShortStory
163 reads
10 Comments
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