my demons named

  
angry thoughts rise to the surface
I stuff them down
into the darkness
 
still, they suffocate  
as I hold back the gorge
that threatens to come forth
 
my anger is pain turned inward
it has so many faces
I had to name them  
 
this one is deceit
the lies I tell myself to feel better
it doesn't matter
that your beauty is gone
the fuck it doesn't  
 
this one is guilt
for the bitch I am
a liar, a cheater
scummy little slut
manipulating my situation
hoping no one finds out
 
this one is shame
he's the one I stuff down the deepest
makes me afraid of looking in the mirror
cos there he is reflected in my eyes
 
the three them gang up on me
raping my mind
speaking as one demon
 
get it together bitch
or give us complete freedom