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thoughts from the edge
it's early morning and I can't sleep
don't want to really
it's quiet here in the dark
there's drugs just outside my door
they will always be there
in case I get weak
I want to go out and chase them
but i'll be chasing them forever
some people would say move
but when the drugs call
no distance is too far
no obstacle too great
I will get what I'm looking for
it's starts and ends with me
I either want my life back or I don't
right now I'm still unsure what I want
my brain is playing tricks on me
it tell me what I want
it orders me in my sleep to go get it
I see it in my nightmares
I'm there doing it
my mind screams
get up bitch you're sleeping
go get it!!!
just across the yard
people are tweaking
they feel unstoppable
my body feels lethargic and heavy
I'm afraid if I lie down I will sleep forever
and the demon drugs dogs will come after me
but I won't sleep forever
it will come to the point I can't sleep anymore
then I'll either hunt it
or push on through the void
it's so hard when there is a desert in front of you
and an oasis behind you
knowing your only way out of addiction
is through the badlands
so you either keep marching on
or take today's easy out
easy in its instant relief
but remember once you snort that line
the time is ticking
until the cunt must be paid again
never knowing when it will be my last bad choice
until it's too late
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Re. thoughts from the edge
Anonymous
- Edited 14th Jul 2018 12:47pm
14th Jul 2018 12:42pm
This one hits hard my dear
I knew a person of whom I fought these demons beside...
Always a constant struggle...
They remain restless...
I admire these metaphors so brilliant...
And ur courage love
Always Autumn <3
I knew a person of whom I fought these demons beside...
Always a constant struggle...
They remain restless...
I admire these metaphors so brilliant...
And ur courage love
Always Autumn <3
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Re: Re. thoughts from the edge
16th Jul 2018 2:44am
thank you beautiful Gypsy for getting through this one and for sharing your own personal experiences...
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. thoughts from the edge
14th Jul 2018 2:19pm
It doesn't get any easier. Stay strong and true to yourself. You are loved ❤
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16th Jul 2018 2:44am
Re. thoughts from the edge
14th Jul 2018 3:16pm
I get that. Well done, kinda like you followed around my inner bullshit. I laugh because the blind still call that partying. I wish I wrote that.
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16th Jul 2018 2:46am
thank you dearest Comply for reading and relating...
I look forward to reading you laying it out in your own style...
love Brenda
I look forward to reading you laying it out in your own style...
love Brenda
Re. thoughts from the edge
14th Jul 2018 5:32pm
heart wrenching write will lots of truth to power and emotion, all in the right measure
It would make my millenium to see you get your life back, to be where you want to be - I will always wishing for that and sending Nigh,and warrior vibes to stand beside you :-)
Love and huge Hugs :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
It would make my millenium to see you get your life back, to be where you want to be - I will always wishing for that and sending Nigh,and warrior vibes to stand beside you :-)
Love and huge Hugs :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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16th Jul 2018 2:46am
thank you dearest David for feeling this write... I deeply appreciate the warrior vibes...
love & hugs..
Brenda
love & hugs..
Brenda
Re. thoughts from the edge
14th Jul 2018 5:58pm
We are the Vampires of Sin! We crave the darkness and everything in it! The drugs are our doorway to the abyss!
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16th Jul 2018 2:47am
thank you graciously dearest Xmar for the poetic comment indeed they are my friend....
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. thoughts from the edge
14th Jul 2018 8:02pm
This part made me blink,
"just across the yard
people are tweaking
they feel unstoppable"
That is so well rendered. You pour a lot of feeling into your writes, something I do as well, and I admire the courage that kind of candor requires.
We're all fucked up in our way. *hugs*
Daniel
"just across the yard
people are tweaking
they feel unstoppable"
That is so well rendered. You pour a lot of feeling into your writes, something I do as well, and I admire the courage that kind of candor requires.
We're all fucked up in our way. *hugs*
Daniel
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16th Jul 2018 2:49am
thank you dearest Daniel for feeling those lines and this write I'm deeply honored to be compared to you when it comes to pouring out our emotions on the page...
love Brenda
love Brenda
Re. thoughts from the edge
14th Jul 2018 8:33pm
Crim.. You know those demons well, take care to sleep them off or watch some porn and stroke it off..
I have been sober since last December, and i know you're going on about the same time,
since last you vacated Dups property for almost 4 months...You can do it ! We can do it!
Write on Lady, write it all out!!I love you Brenda hang it there!
PS we have the "corner store " literately across from my house
and trust me when i say, I feel you...
I have been sober since last December, and i know you're going on about the same time,
since last you vacated Dups property for almost 4 months...You can do it ! We can do it!
Write on Lady, write it all out!!I love you Brenda hang it there!
PS we have the "corner store " literately across from my house
and trust me when i say, I feel you...
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16th Jul 2018 2:50am
thank you beautiful for the love and understanding on this write... you advise on how to handle those cravings gave me smiles and giggles :) congratulations on your own sobriety...
love you lady...
Brenda
love you lady...
Brenda
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14th Jul 2018 11:35pm
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16th Jul 2018 2:51am
Re. thoughts from the edge
I hear people talk about recover and addiction like its a merry go round as if it keeps coming and going. But its not,,,, its mutha fucking hurricane and this shit is vicious... Hang In There dude... : )
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20th Jul 2018 3:55am