has been

 
surveying intricate design
woven inside an enigma
I witness the poetry I've written come undone
when did a star shining so brightly
blink out and disappear?
 
eyes pool and then glaze over
tears are frozen
held in place by a false smile
I see my former self on the horizon
bright and shining a brilliant diamond
cut with clarity of the divine
I reach for her
she sparkles and then vanishes
 
I wear the crown of a Queen
wandering the ruins of my castle
I cry bitter tears  
for the once here and now forgotten
 
I traded my talent in  
now I pay the price of the has been
I was under the delusion
I write better under the influence
until I read the real me
and my eyes were opened
 
into my view she did enter
this intelligent lady of great feeling
I silently wondered was this really me?
 
tears flowed  
I couldn't stop them
for the woman I was
the one I'd forgotten