Almost

Bitch I almost took my own life
I almost pulled the fucking trigger
my poetry over a thousand now and counting
this became my suicide note to the fucking world

Trapped within my own mind I began to unravel
my pain, betrayal and deceit that’s left me in a place of such blackness
there was no release from this hell that I'm in
he got the last words on me “Who is the man now who is fucking your wife"

so fuck you your a low life cunt see you in the next world
I'll be waiting fists at the ready,
I've come so far yet I'm still stuck in the same fucking place in my head
I'm pissed off about how you played me took advantage of me

why send photos of the two of you doing it? with his little attached message
Yes I am angry yes I did not get to say this to either of you
yes I wanted revenge so bad it took a long time to let go of that one
to smash your face in with my fist would of been a bitter sweet pleasure

part of me still wants that, I know that's just human nature
all I could do was swallow my pride and take the guilt, shame on the chin
You shook my foundation to its very core
you just never really knew what you did to me deep down

I become disconnected from my soul
I allowed you to haunt me now I can't stop it
your pink ghost from floating around in my head
I truly thought we had the real deal

you fucked him now there's no you and me
all over your own shame you just could not help yourself
it's a pity it ended that way
Not that this was my choice.