A poem? Spoken word? Or Maybe Both?

Ya know
I feel lonely sometimes
I just....
Sit here....
Feeling so  
Lost and....
None of this makes since to me
None of it....
Adds up,
It makes me feel sadder than ever
The great big world
I thought I once new
If only things were different
Maybe then I would he happy,
What if I were that person instead
Overwhelming myself  
With all the things I over think  
Silence isn't an option for me
I think about to much  
But at the same time
I just DON'T
I feel so dumb so
Then I will feel  
Aware and notice how I feed into all the bull crap  
Worrying about all these things
Holds me back from truly being who I am
But focusing on who I might be  
These things keep me lost
Stressing over the shit that is there to hurt me
Seriously what would it be like to live someone else's life?  
But no I shouldn't think that right?
They don't want me to be aware
Or maybe I just feel like I shouldn't see,
Just a lost girl trying to find her way
And I cry sometimes
I make myself cry
Why do I do that
It's all a part of the mystery
Why am i the way that I am?
Asking myself that everyday  
Never knowing the answer
Just needing answers
That's all I want
But I know I'm keeping myself in the dark
It's hard finding my way out
I feel like I'm spiraling  
But I'm afraid to spiral completely
Because I don't know who I will be further  
What might I end up doing  
But we all go through this right?
Not everyone's stories the same
But open your eyes  
As I jump from corner to corner
Trying to see
Trying to make us all realize
And all i want is......
To be sure of who i am
With more confidence than I could even stand
I'm tired of crying  
And hurting
And just being sad
Listen to my cry
Calling out  
As the pain goes on and on
As I try to tell you what my life is all about
Written by KrystalG
Modified 11th January 2018
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