Erasing....

Its better to just put up my walls
And Keep you out
Away from my memory
I will shut you out
Push you away where I like you to be
Away from my heart and the deepest parts of me
Where most take from me then leave
Leaving me empty stealing the essence of me
Tear me apart
Put a bullet in my head
How bout a capsule of cyanide in my drink
Lately suicide is the only thing I think
Grab the razor in the sink
Opening veins reliving me  
 The warm blood drips off my finger tips
Staining the linoleum
I laugh
At least I'll leave my mark
 I think
Right before darkness consumes me