Stuck in the Dream

Crying when i see his eyes
His darkness brings out mine
Such a deep connection
Just for a moment....
My heart was beating with his
Was i just dreaming?
Or was it a fantasy?
A beautiful moment
But needles to the heart
I dont know if I can go on
He just tore my world apart
I wanted him,
But only....after he claimed me firsthand
He was a dark disaster
But such a beautiful curse
Heart aching
Breath catching
Wanting to keep it together...
Telling myself, it was no big deal
But truly feeling dead on the inside
He has no idea the effect he put on me....
But in the end.....
I was a scrap at the bottom of his shoe
But i try to let it go