Denial

What once has me touch the sun
now brings me to my knees
I disobeyed her orders, so
she's anything but pleased

I'm left to think of my mistake
that causes me such pain
'til she decides she's satisfied
I'm ordered to abstain

I know she's haply with herself
she loves to watch me squirm
she tells me now that pleasure is
a thing I have to earn

what once has made me touch the sun
has brought me to my knees
so next time I should get the chance
I'll be sure that she's pleased