Cascading thoughts

A million thoughts of you cascade throughout my mind a million good times that we shared together now all gone to Hell in a hand basket, A million times I wished for a better outcome I still have you rattling around in my head that's not good to have you know! A million times before today you was almost the dearth of me everyday I still don't know why you even bothered to talk to me it was like I stood a chance after the aftermath, A million before we met I did not stand tall then you crushed me I fell down it took a long time to get back up but not a lot of people know that, A million reasons not to forgive you anyone would agree a million reasons to hate you down deep a million shards of my heart took so long to start to mend never will I let that happen to me again, A million creases that's in my soul thank God I found someone new to help flatten them back out so my soul can start to shine again, A million times over I've wished for the pain to just stop a million times I've wished for your lies and deceit to catch up with you a million times I've been in over my head with you a million times I dreamt that we we're still together a million times I hoped that you would love someone and they ditched you then you might feel what I do a million times over and over it always comes back to you I really did love you.