Pondering!

Sitting here on this rainy morning thinking of you I wonder if you know what I am thinking about or even if you knew I was thinking about you, A text message just received no was not from you! the phone keeps ringing not you either! Wonder if i am crazy for missing you like I do wonder if you could ever miss me as much as I do you, Day's turn into night' sleep I long for as I toss and turn with my mind going at a million miles an hour,  Is it just me or is life meant to be this hard?
Some say I have a heart of pure gold and that my soul is out of this world but still was not enough to hold you close to me for that is what I have longed for, I have fallen many times and gotten back up but every time it gets just that little bit harder,
Don't know if writing this even make scene to any one else bar me but writing is good for the soul so they say so I write this in hope that you might read it one day and think of me in the same way that i do you, The more I write here the more I sound like I am just going on and on about me and you,
Wanted so bad to get drunk but this fight I must do it on my own and with out the grog in hand to make me happy just know that I will always love you.