Stupefied - - - - -The Bitch is back :-)

There is no escape from the evil
When the evil is on the inside
Like a incurable cancerous growth
Infecting everything it touches
Spread by an active mind
That is not seeking evil
Yet that is all it feels and sees
There is no cure or treatment
No therapy to exorcise these demons
You are infected by fear and terror
Scared of your own dark shadows
The kind of dark shadows that don’t show up
On x-rays or ultrasound scans
The Doctors, as usual, are baffled
Bewildered and bemused
I appear to them to be healthy
Only because they cannot see
What I can clearly see
This battle is me against
My own belief in my own evil
In my own capacity for evil
It is not clear yet who will win
And if the prize is still worth winning
But like the good soldier
I will battle on hoping for victory
Settling for a negotiated settlement
The evil remains but agrees
Not to misbehave for a short time
At least, giving me respite
Allowing me to heal
Allowing some light in
It’s almost enough to make me
Believe in God and Satan
But then
I am not yet
That stupefied