stop talkin do the walkin

I'm so fuckin tired of talkers ,
they talk and talk but never walk the walk
whats the point of saying anything if you can't back it up
your mouth writes checks you can't cash
i only handle cash
so i don't got problems with that
people talk the talk
but never walk the walk
don't say shit to me unless you can back it up ,
prove and show all the bullshit your spewing
I DONT NEED HOLLOW NICE WORDS
I NEED REAL IN PERSON FRIENDS
that can actually fucking help me
and i don't mean change me
I mean help glue me back together
actually fucking be there
not just say pretty things because you think I need it
or it helps shit
because it doesn't
, you're only helping your own regret
and it's selfish
I'm not a charity case I don't need your pity
or your pussy
or your titties
I can get that anywhere I really
if I come to you
you fucking know I chose this
want and need this
I don't settle for shit
if I don't want it
I get rid of it
no bullshit
living or inanimate
ill trash some shit
god damnit
I'm gonna die alone I know this
and its fucking bullshit
give this life to someone who wants
because I'm over it
I'm done searching for nothing
I'm fucking stupid for believing I was something
other than nothing
26 years of being abandoned
lied to
used
abused
fuck you!
i fucking hate you
all of you
that whisper sweet nothings
to a dying hollow nothing
your the sick ones
look at you
lying to a tortured soul telling him he's important
over and over again till he kinda believes it
you say he's perfect
lol shut up bitch
you say I'm loved, i'm needed
I'm a good person
who would be a great bf or husband
really ?
then why the fuck aren't you here with him?
when he's spoken
when he's chosen you
out of all his choices he fucking inquiries you
but then
all that shit you poison his head with disappears
so?
I'm all this greatness
and you don't want me ?
how the fuck does that make sense
when I say man
this is great this is awesome
need something like this
and then it's offered to me
I fucking take it
because I don't fake shit
I'm about to start bringing bodies to show and tell you bitches
succubus's
stay the fuck away from me
I'm good with me
and if I link up with anyone
it would be with my kit kat
who fucking treats me famously
and I'm ashamed to say I don't give her enough attention
but i own my sins
because she's been there since the beginning
always holding on to me
even when I'm hurting her
she still puts up with me
fuck I think she might ACTUALLY love me
and REALLY care about me
and not just saying shit because it's pretty