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Shine Within Shame
My fingers traced the silhouette of his mind
and felt the heat of his thoughts calling my name,
like karma yearning the taste of self-inflicted loneliness...
we became emotionally intimate.
I wanted to know why he spoke in resonance.
Why light vanished and rekindled itself each time he said hello.
I let his richness glide through the barriers of my teeth,
through the highlands of my taste buds, and down the exact
passage my air would flee to speak him in existence.
I fucked him for heaven’s sake
and Satan kneeled inside my silk womb.
I gave uncultivated leniency, feeling judiciously conceited.
Yet, I was emancipated, liberated, free…
to inhale inside skin that craved more after 2am submissions
on drenched and ripped sheets that hid what we did behind Pandora’s cadence.
Trying to rationalize with my soul,
was the equivalent to convincing God I’d gain no pleasure
from mental fornication.
Those cognitive trips I took still needed alibis; Penitence
weighed heavy in the form of spiritual lies, and soon...
the shine was darkened by my shame.
No more interrupted nights searching for his hand
in muddy memories where he lifts my lingerie and breathes my regret.
No more captivating words wrapped in warmth that
became heated dialogue…
became aching need…
became desiring him daily on bending knees,
because...fanning the flames of a beautiful burn should never feel like….
work.
Rain~
Published 26th Apr 2016
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26th Apr 2016 7:40pm
starts so powerful. fades into something so sad.
how could your "shine ever be darkened by shame" ?
and "fanning the flames of a beautiful burn should never feel like work"
I agree.
how could your "shine ever be darkened by shame" ?
and "fanning the flames of a beautiful burn should never feel like work"
I agree.
"how could your "shine ever be darkened by shame" ?" <-- I'm sure you know some of our joys in life can be darkened in a blink of an eye. This ink was derived from being happy while doing something that later brought pain, and heartache. In the moment I was in pure bliss but I was ashamed of my selfish actions because I was hurting someone else in the process. Thanks for the read 3P!
26th Apr 2016 7:41pm
Amazingly good writing here. I find this relate able at a lot of levels. I really loved this portion here:
"No more interrupted nights searching for his hand
in muddy memories where he lifts my lingerie and breathes my regret.
No more captivating words wrapped in warmth that
became heated dialogue…
became aching need…
became desiring him daily on bending knees,
because...fanning the flames of a beautiful burn should never feel like….
work. "
Beautifully done. So absolutely definitive 👀
"No more interrupted nights searching for his hand
in muddy memories where he lifts my lingerie and breathes my regret.
No more captivating words wrapped in warmth that
became heated dialogue…
became aching need…
became desiring him daily on bending knees,
because...fanning the flames of a beautiful burn should never feel like….
work. "
Beautifully done. So absolutely definitive 👀
22nd May 2016 6:10am
Thank you Archie. I really struggled with designing that stanza, thrilled to know it turned out well enough to be a fav of yours.
....and yes, the finality in this ink is real. Really happy you kept her. :)
....and yes, the finality in this ink is real. Really happy you kept her. :)
26th Apr 2016 7:49pm
Amen!! It really shouldn't feel that way at all! lol... Super hott writing my dear Rain...
22nd May 2016 6:15am
Correct Poe. You should never feel exhausted, stressed out and drained trying to love someone. Thank you for the ink approval.
26th Apr 2016 9:11pm
great amounts of temptation & sin,
more than Pandora can hold.
let it burn beautifully...
more than Pandora can hold.
let it burn beautifully...
22nd May 2016 6:18am
26th Apr 2016 9:31pm
because...fanning the flames of a beautiful burn should never feel like…. work.....you got that right....loved this Ms. Rain.....everything I do these days feels like work...longing for the play.....
22nd May 2016 6:21am
"everything I do these days feels like work..." <--aww....that sucks.
"...longing for the play....." <--- and that's exactly what love feels like; playful, fun, alive...
Thank you for the ink love.
"...longing for the play....." <--- and that's exactly what love feels like; playful, fun, alive...
Thank you for the ink love.
27th Apr 2016 00:10am
22nd May 2016 6:23am
27th Apr 2016 3:35pm
HAha! Really?! :) Thanks Ted, I getcha'...
Thrilled you decided to take her home with ya'.
Thrilled you decided to take her home with ya'.
28th Apr 2016 7:00am
dam, that was deep, lost my whole train of thought when I got to" lift my lingerie" lol, sounds like you had a deep conversation with your spirit, always a pleasure being baptized by your waters...
lol... you're starting to learn me well Dean! ;) Thank for the giggles, adore ya!
28th Apr 2016 7:25am
rainy lady, you know i love everything you write
{i'm a major fangirl}
but that second stanza just about laid me out & nailed me to the floor...
... this is such a hauntingly beautiful piece
i feel it tugging at something inside
loved it
xoxox
{i'm a major fangirl}
but that second stanza just about laid me out & nailed me to the floor...
... this is such a hauntingly beautiful piece
i feel it tugging at something inside
loved it
xoxox
22nd May 2016 6:56am
....your words always....always....always have a way of making me smile. Really, they do.
Thank you for being gorgeous from the inside out. xoxo
Thank you for being gorgeous from the inside out. xoxo
Anonymous
28th Apr 2016 3:38pm
Oh Sonsista, so many thoughts I have here and I honestly can't even organize them to leave a sensible comment...how's that? I'll leave it at that. Will that do? ltm
With love - Taryn xoxo
With love - Taryn xoxo
22nd May 2016 6:58am
...that it did do, lady T. Just your presence was quite enough. :)
Lyrical love, sonsista~
Lyrical love, sonsista~
Anonymous
1st May 2016 5:37pm
Oooooo Sexy Rain.....have no words for this dynamic powerful ink......dang.....I'm in awe of this......purple luv & hugs xo :)
22nd May 2016 6:59am
4th May 2016 4:11am
💕 Sister of mine,
Anything you touch is pure intricate beauty. You truly are a queen and this gave me chills. Always taking my hat off to you beautiful, Your words flow effortlessly!
Love love it
Anything you touch is pure intricate beauty. You truly are a queen and this gave me chills. Always taking my hat off to you beautiful, Your words flow effortlessly!
Love love it
22nd May 2016 7:06am
You are such a beautiful spirit. :) What would my poetic world be without just a hint of your vibrant spirit? Thank you for such a warm and loving comment, sis. Happy you decided to keep her. xoxo
16th May 2016 11:34pm
What a wonderful poem it took me back to being a boy of 14 who couldn't resist the delicious thrill of masturbation only to be riddled with catholic angst afterwards. The air of sadness that pervaded this work communicated to every part of me.
My god girl you are so good I loved this especially:
"I wanted to know why he spoke in resonance.
Why light vanished and rekindled itself each time he said hello.
I let his richness glide through the barriers of my teeth,
through the highlands of my taste buds, and down the exact
passage my air would flee to speak him in existence."
My god girl you are so good I loved this especially:
"I wanted to know why he spoke in resonance.
Why light vanished and rekindled itself each time he said hello.
I let his richness glide through the barriers of my teeth,
through the highlands of my taste buds, and down the exact
passage my air would flee to speak him in existence."
22nd May 2016 7:11am
Tony, you have no idea how your comment moved me. Truly, it did!
Absolutely honored to be exposed to you and your prose. So appreciative of you, the laughter, light and poetic friendship you bring. *Just had to get that off my chest.* :) Thanks for adding her to your net library. :)
Absolutely honored to be exposed to you and your prose. So appreciative of you, the laughter, light and poetic friendship you bring. *Just had to get that off my chest.* :) Thanks for adding her to your net library. :)
