Letter to my older brother

You told me,
"I love you"
And then you forced me onto my bed
'You're my sister let me protect you"
But you're actions didn't match what you said.

Mother, why did you let him come back into our home..
Why did you let us be alone?
Father, why didn't you protect me
I was to weak to protect myself

Brother, why did you hurt me
Why did you force me on that bed
Brother, why did you hold that
Gun to my head.

Your words feel like razor blades
Slowly cutting me down to size.

And then I think.. Its my fault this happened.
Why didn't I lock my door?
Why didn't I run away
Why do I still want to end my life
Day after day..
                   NO.

-letter to, whom it may concern.

I'm still alive,
But I'm struggling to push on.
I won't let this beat me,
Though it's hard to move on..
Don't ever let someone
Make you lose sense of your self worth
Sometimes, you need to put yourself first.

Step one: remember you're not to blame,
Step two: start to rebuild
Step three: repeat the first two steps and get back to me.

Sincerely, someone who's now stronger than I use to be.