Talking to the Rain

I'm talking to the rain again
And it speaks to me in honest words
Delivered with gentle kindness
Designed to uncloud my judgment
It's here to cleanse this anxious mind
And set free emotions weighing on chest
I feel cold but I also know
That warmth is where it longs to lead me

I often trust its comforting nurture
And seek fresh perspective in its waters
So I pour my heart out all at once
Till it pours down on me with heavy truth
I always hope it falls in sprinkles
In case I'm not ready for the force in which it comes
But "you're your own worst enemy" fell from the sky in drops
And there is no umbrella which shields from that

I tried to run for shelter but darkness came
And quickly blocked every pathway in view
I lost the will to stand, stand up for myself
Then caved to defeat of my undying emotions
Overlapping thoughts an endless tormentor
No escape from intensity of this weather
A body soaked in yesterday's, frozen
Occupying space in the anguish of today

And like the sky
I rain

The ground is shaking, or is it me?
I just lay here helpless to the torrents
And get submerged in the flood, drained
Tomorrow could easily wash away
Eyes close and I have nothing left
Except remnants of hope that touched my face
Leaving stains of contentment upon my skin
To remind me where it's always been

But soon I'll wake to inhale the scent of rain fresh passed
And I will have strength to find light that often calls to me
"You'll be okay" it softly speaks
"But right now it's okay not to be"
Colours of better reflect in rainbows overhead
As I remember that I can move through life at my own pace
It doesn't matter how fast or how long
You gotta feel weak in order to be strong

And I am at my strongest when
I am brave enough to release all that weighs me down
Unafraid to feel sharp blades tear from flesh
Dust that has collected and stuck to my insides
Naked and exposed
With no sight of where to go
Rejuvenating my heart one beat a time
Alongside the rhythm of the rain