They'd Judge Me

 If they ever found out this side of me, they'd never look at me the same
The pleasure I take in being tortured when it comes to sex and pain
Sweet little her there is no way she holds a place that twisted
Perhaps if the rumors were ever to get out, they'd turn away and dismiss it
But sometimes I like to venture to that dwelling when backs are turned
I need it every now and then consume me with that burn
The only thing I struggle with is who to trust to tame it
That raging beast in me is anxious but come on can you blame it?
It's like opening the skies pulling back the clouds the sight is mines to keep
Then closing it and saying you can’t touch but you can see
All I have is simply a memory in my mind
Lovely image to me but to the world that’s not so kind
So deep down it lies in me waiting to be shared
With only one who can look back in my eyes and not care
This pulsating compulsion I can describe in a million words
But I’d rather you pull the sound from me with each lash that you surge
Strike me and make me scream to the air my rowdy pleasures
Stretch me wide to lengths my natural body doesn’t measure
Inflict upon me agony until I cannot take it
If I disobey your command, punish me, don’t let me make it
Thrust deep on the inside until she is pulsating
Get me high off of your so mesmeric dominating
Dangle me however long you need til I learn patience
Torture me with the textures, lay me on the cold pavements
Arouse my inner makings with nothing more than a stare
I know in you lies mysterious please won’t you take me there?
Lick my skin and smack it causing it to firm up tight
Bite me upon my wrists like the creatures do of the night
Have fun see how many times you can make me cum
Watch my body convulse hear my heart beat like a drum
Hmm I love this feeling I never want it to end
But I must go back to the light before a search they send
Once more I am left hiding a secret that could destroy me
If ever they found out for sure I know they’d judge me