lo seinto mi hijo/ im sorry son

Hush  little mio, please dont cry
daddy gotta to go , daddys got to ride
why papi ? Why you going now?
Because son papi has to die
no papi !? No papi why?

I always wanted the best life for you
always did my best to be dad for you
I never lied to you once son, and that the truth
I taught everything thing could
with the time I had with you .

With every second in a minute in an hour
you blessed me ,
the day you were born changed evrything
you cured the sickness that lived in papi
all the pain, all the hate the depression and the misery
disappeard instantly, you took everything ,perfectly
with doing anything ,

you son
are perfectly everything
everyone, every person, and every being

you are  jesus, you are the devil
you are alpha and you are omega
you are the light ,and the darkness
you are kind and you are tough
you are soft but also rough
you are fair and always just.
You are papi  when he was young.

what he used to be
before the world and its fucked humans
took it from me .

You are better , I taught you everything
how to walk , how to talk how to read and how to pee I
taught you fucking everything,

how could mommy do this to us
how could mommy leave us like this
how could she turn away from me
look at your face and walk away so damn easily  

Are you broken?  Are you bad?
Are you nothing, do we make mommy sad?
Papi no! that thing is bad, take it of your mouth
it makes me so sad.
I couldn't do it then, remember son
papi listened he put down the gun ,
now your gone and its not the same
5 years together just you and me
together fighting life and surviving

this last year son without you
has changed daddy back into the old me
I can't take it anymore I'm sorry
everyone now just wants to hurt me .
They act like your friend ,accept me ,then dirt me
the people in this new state I fucking hate
I wanna go home but its to late ,
pray for me son I have to go
I love you son you were everything to me
you were the best thing thats ever been mine  
but your gone now, and papi has to die