When I'm Broken

 
 
 
"We shared each other bodies
 a few hundred times
and here we are pretending we
don’t know each other’s faces”

*I think you like me when I’m broken*
 
Sculpting my own words into
gold palms of senseless banter
while we quarrel to win
inhale intentions to try again
but you…
you continue to perpetuate pain  
with mind games  
that I can’t seem to bring myself to playing
and not staying
feels better than settling for the little you give,
when I know in my heart
I’m deserving of so much more.
You’ve hurt me without remorse
par for the course,
when it comes to you and I
and I wonder why do we,
mirror each other with stares
naïve to one another’s wants,
as if...
being in proximity of our inhibited energy  
is sufficient enough to stay bound together
when your actions exposed you
revealing the real you,
and now I’m wondering if I ever really
knew you.
My emotions streamlined
my affections into a viral-vine
trying to show you that I really cared
yet, I was invisible, not even there,
because you made me feel like I was a ghost
and even though your lips spoke forever
I guess forever was just a temporary feel.
 
“We shared each other bodies
 a few hundred times
and here we are pretending we
don’t know each other’s faces”

*I think you like me when I’m broken*
 
 
Rain~
 
Disclaimer: (Inspired by a good friend. I channeled her pain to give her emotions a voice because her voice is just above a shattered whisper at the moment. This is her heartache and I ache with her. I hope she is reading this and I hope I've made her proud.) Lyrics inspirations - When I'm Broken, by: Janine