Cant Help

Inside myself i feel like shouting
I  feel like screaming
I feel like pounding something
But in the outside all i do is cry.
Ive always had this constant ache in my chest.
It hurts a little more everyday.
I dont know how to fix it.
Im always sad or okay.
Im never happy, i dont remember when i was truly happy.
When i think about everything in my life
I cant see with blurry eyes.
I either want hide or stay still
I cant tell you cuz i know u wouldnt understand cuz i hardly understand it myself.
And no, you cant help me.
The scariest part about all this is, I dont know if i can help myself.