"IF" ( Mental Diary)

the insight in this vibe here digs deep Rain
specifically this:

"If living in the moment exhibited no realistic option
for a future together,
then lust should have fondled temptation
and flirted with passion, while love stood at a distance…..
exposing just the carnal face of us " BOOM!!!

love loss with perspective
love it!!!!

...yeah, the stanza you've pointed out is the strongest mental affliction surrounding this ink for me. Glad you enjoyed the vibe Naajir. I know the potency in your pen, and how powerful your mind is, so an ink-nod and RL add, pumps me up. Thanks luv....

I understand how this love lingers but if it's a transaction I doubt it could last.  It sounds like he's doing business rather than giving into passion:

"If the intimacy I was meant to finance
diminish in value with each uncertain inhale,
and the overwhelming worth of romance’s assets
never recoup from life’s insufferable trails,
then I can truly say love came with a price
that I couldn’t afford"

I imagine he's the one who paid if he couldn't have you.  Fine work Rain!

That's an interesting and truly worthy observation crowfly, thank you so much for the reply. Looking at my words and the way you perceived them, I could see that perspective. The point I tried to make was, we invest our heart, body and soul into loving someone, but what happens when it doesn't work out? All the time and energy- wasted? Scars and bruises left behind, etc... Love can be emotionally expensive.    
I think this ink speaks more about our situation and less about him. His love, passion, and dedication to me was never in question. Just the situation, it became murky and taxing for me.Thanks hun...

[...]If the intimacy I was meant to finance
diminish in value with each uncertain inhale,
and the overwhelming worth of romance’s assets
never recoup from life’s insufferable trails,
then I can truly say love came with a price
that I couldn’t afford [...]

I read the poem and it touched me deeply, read the insightful comments and read your poem again ...
The second stanza's my favourite stanza, too, since it questions love, labels love.
It's sad that love costs and that someone is going to pay for it sometime. Mostly.
It's sad when you don't get as much back as you invested.
Love is a game of luck. No payback ...
A great poem, Rain, I love it. xoxo

aww...thank you Chi for studying this ink to the point it touched you. That stanza seems to be the meat of this ink for readers and I'm wondering if my discernment of argument in those few words, delivered the message ineffectively. Maybe I should have written in 'glass half full' ink, you know; (when you do something out of love, you don't count the cost), instead of the negative connation this ink exude, but shit, my mind was reflecting and I was in a zone. Thank you beautiful!

No, you shouldn't have written it with another connotation. It's perfectly written and equally understood. Just thought about it a long time and perhaps just my approach to it was different. But that's fine since it's the best argument that your poem provokes thinking and reflecting! Thank YOU! xoxo

Oh thankya gorgeous! You are a gem! Xoxo

This poem reminds me just how lucky I am the second time around. We are growing older (Our grey is definitely the new black) and we are reaping the rewards of dedication that we  invested in our earlier passion..
Thanks Rain a touching and insightful piece.

....and that's exactly how it should be, Tony!  :) Growing old together! Love is truly a beautiful thing. I see it in your emails when you speak of your wife. Thank you funnyman!

Beautiful i could  cry. I feel each word written as if it were my own

....go head on and cry Jake, ain't nothing wrong with a man crying. Thank you for knocking on my front door, being a supportive- poetic neighbor and all. :) I appreciate you adding her to your cyber library, and thank you for the subscr. I'll be sure to hit you up soon for a read....

Venting is important and you're doing it with such class Rain.
My heart goes out to you.
I've been there and needless to say its the most devastating things in life, which leaves a permanent mark.

Thank you Vee! This vent was longggg overdue! I'm quiet wonderful now. :)
Appreciate the poetic love....

Lovely Rain such a tender, passionate venting sending love your way on this write..

love Crim

Thank you crim, happy you liked! Appreciate you sweety! Xo

I have to say, i love Blocat's comment.

As for you mamacita, I love when you tell it like it is and in the process, set yourself free. Free of false promises and hidden lies. It's better to see who and what a person truly is and be at peace, than to give all of yourself to nothing.......Preach on gurl ; )

Lena, nothing makes the soul rejoice like releasing toxicities that drain the heart and mind. ;)
Thank you beautiful, I adore you…..

heartbreak kept in the silence & loyalty of a journal.
your emotion is beautifully documented...

Thank you John! Coming from such a skilled and gifted poet as yourself, I'm flattered!

a truly remarkable journey of emotions and reflections through your mental diary, and i hear you love can be expensive even bankrupt some, nice Rain...

I ditto love being expensive, even bankrupt for some, Dean! Thank you my friend.....

Interesting topic to ponder

Intense feelings for one to draw from will always have treasure to offer. I think because society makes us feel we must dip into our treasure daily if not hourly to please. One should use temptation to make the treasure more desireable, not always giving in. It really isn't work when you want it. Desire, the strogest emotion that holds all others feelings. Lose it and the bad feelings come out to play.

Thought provoking write, thank you for the brain tease.

"One should use temptation to make the treasure more desireable, not always giving in. It really isn't work when you want it. "<--Preach! Totally agree.... Thank you G, always love reading your words....

Simply put--those past inspirations...present tense situations...future dramatizations...an add for my library!

(((((((heyyyy shell!))))))  *screaming* because I'm happy to see ya! :)  
.....and I completely agree with your stance! 100% Real! Thank you for stopping by for a visit!  
Appreciate you adding her to your cyber library!  
Hugs....

I love and hate this piece. I love it because your style of writing is so diverse and complex. You're like a poetic martial artist Rain. More styles than the Wu-Tang Clan. I hate it because I'm an Alpha Male who frequently looks back on past relationships with a self-centered mentality. Pieces like this  ake me reflect l  those times I was dead wrong, and could have been more in tune with "her" vibe.  How many true loves have been lost in my lifetime due to negligence? Ouch!
That is why me and this piece have a love/hate relationship.

I sigh whenever you visit me DP, in a way that garner admiration! You're just a phenomenal writer and it's humbling to hear your thoughts on my ink once more. The beauty of reflecting is, you can look back on the falls of your self-centered-mentality and acknowledge it. That's growth hun, that's positive change of the mind and that's a good thang', when going forward. :) I actually adore your love/hate relationship with this ink..;)
Thank you for inhaling me once again....