Dear dad...

Dear dad,
I wasn't even a year Eddie was only three and Kyle was only six,
Do you even know what happened to them do you even care?
No because you never would've done it,
Instead you let your "kids" get taken away,
Just to only have one come back,
And I wish it wasn't me but I couldn't do anything,
Instead of protecting us you hurt us you never watched me grow up, never had a birthday, Christmas, etc
No because you were in a cell
I hope it was worth it cause instead of protecting mommy and I you let us find abuse in relationships even towards each other,
Are you proud?
Did you ever think about us the "family" you replaced after you got out?
You must cause that hurts but that's all you know how to treat me,
You won't walk me down the isal,
missed 16 birthdays now going 17!
Every fathers day just a day of depression,
Do you even care that in third grade I was already trying to be like other kids to feel 'cool'
Do you even notice that one day I will die and you won't be there because you just don't care,
Would you even care if I died today?
No you wouldn't cause you don't know me the only thing you know is how to hurt me,
But it's okay I'm used to it after all I was six months,
Now what was ounce a six month old is now sixteen
Who only has a picture of a big brother she will never know because you hurt us and had him taken away,
I cry knowing my uncle will be the one to walk me down the isal instead of you because my uncle has known me has seen me knows me more than you ever will,
It kills me knowing you replaced us but you have a new family so have fun watching them grow instead of your own daughter I'm sorry you didn't use protection I know you didn't want me now I'll leave before you know it and don't worry I'll make sure you don't go to my funeral cause why would a stranger go to it?
A boy who never could be a "dad".
So dad have fun raising step kids instead of your own flesh and blood while she's been dying since she was 8
A little to used to pain.
But are you happy now?
I'm not writing anymore because I'm heartbroken because of you and never will know you or what it's like to have someone to call a dad so goodbye don't miss me wait you don't!!