Apologies

All these hopes you placed in me make me tumble,
As they so abruptly tremendously crumble,  
Nothing shall be meant to end this way,  
But you need to understand that I rarely do things halfway.
 
I am sorry for holding on,  
When I should have withdrawn.  
 
I meant everything to you and your hazel eyes,  
And pushing you to edges was surely unwise,  
Since it did nothing but tear us apart,  
And leave our beloved path to finally part.  
 
I am sorry for destroying you,  
And hurting myself too.  
 
You pulled yourself together in the blink of an eye,
For that you are stronger than you think,
And can find a new track when pushed to your brink,
There is but one thing I can say now, and it’s goodbye.  
 
I am sorry for not sharing your strength,  
And trying losing the battle at length.  
 
I have lost the love of my short life,  
And if today dead I look, please let her know,  
Because terrible moments I now undergo,  
And far away I wish I could blink.  
 
I am sorry for feeling this way,  
And not being able to meet you halfway.  
 
Even if you holding me close you now can’t,  
I am the flowers surrounding you, yes, this little plant,  
I am the rain pouring down your cheeks,  
And will look after you until your very last weeks.  
 
I am sorry for leaving you alone,  
And in your memory being set in stone.