Gut Feelings & Love

Some times  
things aren't exactly as they seem
Some guys  
aren't the ones doing the misleading
He tried  
to get to my heart through my armor
but it's high
& abandoned, so off he wandered
It's not  
the first time that this has happened  
I've shot  
so many of my given chances  
They drop
& I pretend it's how I planned it  
Instead  
of admitting I don't understand it
 
I want love, but I'm in love with distance
I want more, but I put up more resistance
I don't know, what I am looking for, but
I've just got this feeling in my gut  
that says I have so much to learn about love
 
Some things  
just don't add up in the end
His ring  
didn't fit my finger like a friend  
It stings  
or at least that is what he said
"I didn't mean"
I started but he cut me off instead  
I'm lost  
but I talk like I know who I am
The cost's  
missing out on things I could understand  
I'm not  
ignorant but we're all distracted
 
I want love, but I'm in love with distance
I want more, but I put up more resistance
I don't know what I am looking for, but
I've just got this feeling in my gut  
that says I have so much to learn about love.  
 
It's worse
those nights I'm too long by myself
I hurt
and want the comfort of someone else  
I curse  
say tomorrow I'll be made of metal
but first  
I've a boy to call & odd numbered flower petals
 
I want love, but I'm in love with distance
I want more, but I put up more resistance
I don't know what I am looking for, but
I've just got this feeling in my gut  
that says I have so much to learn about love