Back Then

I'm trying...
To see my Shadow again

Back when I submerged myself in self sin...
Back when I...
Couldn't see my Shadow...
Because my Shadow had a shadow my friend

I mean...
There was a time when I just...
Fell right in
Swimming in Self Loathing
Back stroking in anger and provoking

Now The Light found the cracks in
My Warriors Armor
No Longer am I enamored
By Destructions Glamour

Cause my soul clamored
To find refuge
When my sanity was... debatable
See the madness I once felt
Was all too... relatable

Back Then...
MY anguish... allowed me to languish
In My Putrid Dish...Of Mental Shit
Drowning at my own risk...
Knowing full well that...
Life was better than this  
 
Yet The Light some how found its way
Inside my hide teaching my spirit how
To glide...
Putting healing salve upon my Pride
Drying my eyes after all those
Bitter tears I cried...

When I said I had no heart...
I Lied...

Back Then
Me and My heart were like
Surgically Separated Twins
Felt strange to be apart
Can't wait.. to be connected again

Yeah Back then...
I walked a different way
Didn't listen to what the Elders
had to say...
I was set on...sway...
But the message I'm trying to convey...
Is that Back Then...
Was Just
Yesterday