Strange feeling

Not knowing all these years what I was doing
Not even remembering what was like since the beginning,
Sometimes I simple wake-up and wait for day ending!
Not even knowing a reason for living,
What a strange feeling
I see things that are not there...
Things that were never meant to be there
From malice I see tenderness
From crowd I see loneliness,
From miserable I see happiness
From future I see my past,
I see myself getting lost.
It’s a strange feeling at most
Perhaps sometimes I wish for things impossible to get
For instance I wish I was forever young,
Forever stuck in my mind about everything
And knowing nothing of life
With a law keeping me safe,
Knowing nothing of hate
Having either less fate
Knowing nothing of racism...
And having no life solecism
But these are just strange feelings.